AuBuRn AdaMs

2010-11-13T16:00:00.000-08:00

And I stayed up since three am in the morning!

What was I thinking?

I am really tired mentally, emotionally and physically!

Why?

Because I think too much!

And yes I did only because I give a fuck about what has been going on lately only to discover that I'm heart-broken!

I just have no idea why is it so hard for people to treasure one's presence and not take advantage of what they have, and not regret in the end, when everything's over?

I need to knock some sense into these people!

Am I too ugly or something? Cause if I am, I'll do something about it!

Am I vulnerable or stupid? Cause I might just be numb and be mean to you!

It hurts so fucking bad and I just want you to know that!

I have been giving in alot, and I can name you the events in detail of which I did just that and you'll be surprised trust me!

I deserve better treatment than this, I know so because I have given you everything!

Love, care, concern, attention, affection, name it!

But that isn't good enough?

If that's the case, go marry a barbie doll or someone who can condone to whatever it is that you wish/desire!

I have had enough, I swear!

Friends; HELP!!

I really need to start a fresh, I really need to move on!

Time heals all wounds,

xoxo~

2010-11-09T10:12:00.000-08:00

Time check; 2.34 am ;)

I still can't sleep, what is wrong with me?

Have I gone mad or something?

Honestly I just can't describe this feeling right now,

And boy I hate it when I'm all emotional!

Bummer~

It seems that something's amiss!

I had a shoot in school today and it went well thank God!

And headed straight to meet bestie at town and had dinner at Mac ;)

I just feel as though I am at a losing end,

Bestie's not with me, I am busy with school and work and I still wanna make myself busy eventhough my schedule is packed!

I just can't sit down and think!

I don't work that way!

My God!

It's so frustrating!

Knowing the fact that I don't have my best friend in the world by my side 24/7!

It is seriously killing me!

I am paranoid and I have to admit, I am feeling lonely!

Deep down only God knows how much I have suffered!

Please, God, hear my prayers, please make me a stronger person!

I can never lie to myself..

Depression

2010-11-06T17:55:00.000-07:00

One day my patience with you will run out, and i will punch you in the face!

You really tested my patience!

I wish I could strangle you or cut you into pieces!

Just don't test me, it's my second day at work and you gave me "that look"

I have had enough of you doing that in school, laughing along with your friends and now at work?

Fuck you la bitch!

If you want to talk about me, say it in front of my face, suar!

You don't have the guts right? That's the problem!

You think too highly of yourself, and so what if you are some kind of good descent girl but you don't act like one?

If you want my respect, EARN IT!

Get it?

I don't need another enemy because I have plenty, and it's not something to be proud of!

I am fuming mad at you because I don't know what your problem is, woman!

And I'll create a scene, soon, pretty soon, if you don't stop your crap!

;)

2010-10-31T06:15:00.000-07:00

Watching Harry Potter with love now,

I missed spending quality time with him,

It seems that we're always busy doing our own things and tomorrow we'll be busy again!

Woke up at 8.30 in the morning, since I am supposed to accompany love to Jb!

As promised, I woke up instantly, on my notebook and then tweet, followed by sharing a quote in facebook and went for a quick shower before love starts nagging ;p

So I was told we were just going there to pump petrol but as usual, I changed plans!

I was so happy my day wasn't disturbed by anyone (esp mom ;p) and that I was able to spent quality time with love so we decided to go shopping at City Sq!

I was pretty excited upon reaching the destination, since I love being in Msia!

Everyone was so friendly and nice, and I love the environment there,

Malaysians are so polite!

And we had lunch at Marry brown, and the moment I saw "buai buai" I screamed!

And as usual, Muhammad Hazwan had to tolerate my nonsense and dined with me,

Because I will retaliate if he doesn't, so he knows me well and just agreed!

I was so "JAKUN" and kept swinging all the way, even when we were eating!

Everyone looked at me and I just couldn't be bothered! Who am I to kid? I'm childish but that's not the point! The point is that we don't have that in Singapore!

So after which, we headed to SASA to get my lashes and then I got my make up case!

We went to Watsons after that and I got myself the vaseline whitening lotion! I really hope it works yea?

And we both spent the rest of our days at home,

I really had a blast today, looking forward to next week!

XO<3

2010-10-30T01:26:00.000-07:00

Stay home saturday!

Went for my job interview at guardian today and thank God everything went well!

I am starting next week, prolly on friday or saturday,

Since Kak Hana booked me for expo exhibition!

Syukur Alhamdulillah, rezeki ;)

I am very much contented with everything God has given me and I swear I will work very hard for both school and work!

Yes, I know maybe to some working at such places might be rather degrading, but I don't care or give a damn so long as it's halal money and I can support myself, I am fine!

I have my family and friend's support so I don't mind about anything at all, thank God for everything he has given me!

School has been well too and I can't wait to graduate and get my diploma!

I really wanna apply for SQ Or Emirates, I know I have been saying this for oh so many times but I mean it really!

And my mom is happy everything is doing well for me,

I need to learn to be independent so there you go mom and dad!

And yes I lead a very simple life, and mom's a guardian manager while dad's a businessman but I have to learn the meaning of life!

Mom, you inspire me, and this is for you,

I love my family and friends to death, thank you for the moral support you have given me all this while,

XO<3

2010-10-26T04:31:00.000-07:00

I just can't begin to explain how tough it is for me to be in this state!

I miss bestie so God damn much!

I can't do this any longer, I feel like a lost sheep without bestie!

I am not being exaggerating or anything but at the rate I am going, I can just die!

He's not there physically to listen to my complains or laugh with me,

Or even entertain or hug me or tell me everything will be okay!

I need him, I really need him!

I am beginning to miss everything that we do together!

God, why are you testing me in this manner?

I no longer have sephora, just my Ipod and me, and where's Buruma?

God, please hear my cry, please make me strong, please God please!

I can't bear to lose him anymore!

I really need buruma in my life, please help me be strong!

Whenever I turn left or right, I don't see anyone I know anymore, goodness!

It's crazy!

I hate going to school alone, I hate eating alone, gg to lecture and classes alone!

I need you buruma, I truly need you!

I have been silent because Its eating me up inside, please buruma,

Hear my cry ;(

ILYVVM <3

2010-10-21T21:31:00.000-07:00

So me and bestie went shopping!

Charles and Keith Warehouse Sale at Tai Sing St!

We came at about 11 am in the morning only to discover the whole place is packed!

Goodness gracious! I was so shocked!

Sale is where you can see women acting like monkeys from the zoo!

Me and bestie stand behind everyone who were literally pulling and pushing each other for the $9 worth of shoes!

Sadly, I didn't manage to get my leopard print bag but I got myself a zebra bag!

Super gorgeous!

I am a huge fan or C&K and thanks to bestie's friend, Adam for informing us about the sale!

So, thank you thank you thank you!

You made Miss Adams a happy girl, woohooo~

After which, went school to finalize my timetable, this semester would be rather relaxed so thank God for that!

I'm gonna work part time to occupy my time and I need an organizer, seriously!

I need to be dead serious this time, no more having fun!

I shall be disciplined!

I wanna ace my papers and get a diploma, this is my final chance to prove my worth!

I want to do my parents proud, daddy says, after dip, apply for SQ!

Wooohooo!

Pardon me for the sidetrack, after which we headed to MBS to meet Nowreen and Arab!

God, they look so good together, hopefully someday they get married and get gorgeous babies hehe!

I am soooooo happy for the both of them, and Reen baby, you always have my support, and ILY!

So I won't abandon you no more okay, xo<3

2010-10-20T09:42:00.000-07:00

2010-10-19T08:02:00.000-07:00

As I am listening to 91.3 and searching for my charger, I wish to tell you more about what happened today ;)

I had a blast with my boys, Buruma, Adex & Hubs!

So much fun! It has been a while since we gathered together to have a descent outing!

Thank Allah today hubs is on half-day leave and everyone else is free!

I called them boys and made plans for today!

Initially, we planned to have early dinner and head to cold rock for ice-cream and grab cookies

from Marks & Spencer then head to Helix bridge, MBS (since Adex never stepped his feet there before) and then call it a day!

Once we reached Somerset, we headed to KFC and had our dinner, we laughed, talked, disturbed people and camwhore!

Until we were all so bloated due to the amount of food we ordered, lolx!

After which, we decided to take a walk and ended up forgetting cold rock! *ROFL*

I swear we were all so bloated!

Walked from somerset to ION, Orchard then to Wheelock to grab them cookies at M&S~

I wanted a grape juice but they only carry wine!?

Grrrr~

So we had CHOCOLATE BISCUITS which were superbly delicious and headed straight to Helix Bridge, MBS!

After which, we camwhore alot at Helix bridge and went straight to MBS to camwhore further ;D

We ended our day with smiles and laughter, sadly, starting next week, school reopenes ;(

Buruma will be busy with his MPSIP, and Adex will be busy with school, hubs with NS, myself with baby Ashton ;p

Well apparently me and my boys are simple people! So we don't really mind where we go or what we do so long as the time is well spent and we're all happy!

I love you boys alot, forever and ever, xo<3

2010-10-18T03:38:00.000-07:00

I had trouble waking up today!

Three hours of sleep and I was like one drunkard the moment I got out of bed!

I slept at 5, woke up at 8! Bummer~

Mom woke me up at 6 initially, and I told her, give me 5mins!

Then she came back at 7 in the morning, I went '8 please?'

She gave up until she shout out loud 'JAN, WAKE UP! YOU ARE GOING TO BE LATE'

And I thought there was an earthquake at pasir ris!

Even my neighbors could hear her from far, lolx!

So I woke up, went to school, had a big breakfast, while BFF had ramlee burger and so did daddy

and then me and BFF headed off to Little India!

We went threading at our fav beauty parlor and straight after that we headed to MUSTAFA CTR!

I missed going there so bad so I got everything I needed!

From my eyeliner, to my eyebrow pencil, to foundation sponge and etc!

After shopping, BFF and I ate prata (BFF) and rice with fish curry and fried chicken (me)!

We headed to buffalo road to get BFF's perfume and headed home thereafter!

Exhausted; because he made me walk from Little India all the way to Mustafa Ctr but for him,

I went to every extend!

I love shopping! Oh what else is new?

Gotta book my facial soon @ Rapellez!

Changing my product to Shadira back, whoppeeeee~

xoxo♥

GIORNATA PER L'AMICIZIA*

2010-10-17T13:37:00.000-07:00

2010-10-16T07:34:00.000-07:00

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY BURUMA AND JANNUMA

I just can't believe it's been two years!

16 Oct 2008 is where we forged our friendship and now I can happily admit I am happy, so so happy that I found him in my life!

I am forever grateful for what you've done for me ma, xo!

I swear I had a blast today!

Firstly, we got ourselves the same t-shirt and it's in his favorite color; BLUE!!

Then we headed to MBS to camwhore, as usual!

And then had dinner at Marina Square!

After which, we went to tamp and he gor me a GUESS WALLET!

How sweet is that??!

Also, he got me a keep calm bag from Wallet Shop and we got each other mini Care bears!

His in blue and mine in pink!

I can roughly think for his bday celebration, I have something in mind!

Yay!!

I am actually in bad shape today, but since I promised him I must fulfill my words!

I am super happy today!!

We ended the night by drinking grape juice and to summarize it all, I HAD FUN!

LOVE YOU LOADS BURUMA <3

Till death do us part!

2010-10-10T19:26:00.000-07:00

Daddy Says "In Life All You Need Is RESPECT"

2010-10-10T18:45:00.000-07:00

And so I watched LAGENDA BUDAK SETAN,

No worries, there are subtitles though!

I guess my personal blog is rather simple and plain compared to my tumblr~

I want it to be easier for you to read cause if it's too fancy it might be an irritant to the eyes!

So I had a heart-to-heart talk with MH and I cried, cried and cried whenever I am not with him!

Why I can't move on;

He changed me, brought me to the right path, saved me from myself, made me a queen in his life and treasured me!

Yes, It's his first rship, so i gotta see it in a different angle!

I know it's hard for him cause he's never been this serious and I know he's never the sort who goes around telling girls ILY or anything for that matter!

And yes, It's hard, I never mentioned it was easy!

I tried moving on, not that I don't but nothing can compare to him!

I hold on to our black book, memories of me and him,

Staying up till four in the morning just to star gaze with baby cousin,

Cried for hours and hours when we both are in depression,

Doing stupid and foolish things that hurt us just to forget each other,

Went for every single family occasion,

Mom's wedding, mom's solemnization, fasting month, birthdays, anything and everything!

I have been so attached to him, and we don't need no sex for that!

It's beyond description!

I have been through so much Sh*t in my life,

Over and over again we hurt each other,

But every night I pray to God to find me a soulmate,

And yet he's the first one I come running to when I am sad or happy,

And yes he might be monotonous, religious, boring and quiet!

But that's what makes him special in my eyes!

I've never really been able to convince myself I can't live without him,

But this time round, I have to admit, he's everything to me,

Be it in a rship or friendship,

He's the one I come running to for help,

He's the one I come running to for comfort,

He's the one I come running to for attention~

And eventhough if we don't get to be together in the mere future,

I CAN NEVER AND WILL NEVER FORGET MUHAMMAD HAZWAN~

2010-08-30T00:32:00.000-07:00

I just give up on everything, really!

I told mom, if this fails, I am finding a Caucasian!

I have had enough of going through depression and I definitely have had enough of endless sleepless nights!

It is driving me insane honest, only my close ones know!

Yesterday was the first time I laughed out loud!

Many thanks to Adex and Buruma ;)

I have been so dull lately and I refrain myself from meeting my mom but it is eating me up inside!

Only God knows!

Worse, I can’t pray or even fast, once I am clean I will do just that, raise my hands and ask Allah for help!

I can’t break down just yet, I can’t feel miserable now, and I can’t lose focus!

My exams start on the 7th and I am losing a lot of focus because I think too much!

Deep down inside, I cry but I can never show my sadness!

I try not too but whenever I think about him, me and us, I breakdown!

Till today, my friends have been giving me moral support, encouraging words to make me feel better!

Thank you all!

Srsly! I don’t know what I will be without my friends!

Be it virtual world or not, to those who have been with me through thick and thin,
From the bottom of my heart, I thank you!

Sincerely, I thank you! You guys are the reason why I am strong enough to overcome all the obstacles that comes my way!

May ALLAH bless your kind souls!

And I have reconciled with my aunt! Thank God!

I don’t want to bear any grudges anymore!

I really hope everything will be fine sooner or later Insyallah!

I just need some time to recover, I need some time to be stable,

I need strength to go on, Dear Allah help me please!

;’(

2010-08-27T00:21:00.001-07:00

I bust the windows out your car
And no, it didn't mend my broken heart
I'll probably always have these ugly scars
But right now I don't care about that part

I bust the windows out your car
After I saw you looking right at her
I didn't wanna, but I took my turn
I'm glad I did it, 'cause you had to learn

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you felt when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when

You see you can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

Ha ha ha ha, I bust the windows out your car
You know I did it, cause I left my mark
Wrote my initials with the crowbar
And then I drove off into the a dark

I bust the windows out your car
Hey, you should be lucky that that's all I did
After five whole years of this bullsh**
Gave you all of me, and you played with it

I must admit it helped a little bit
To think of how you felt when you saw it
I didn't know that I had that much strength
But I'm glad you see what happens when

You see you can't just play with people's feelings
Tell them you love them and don't mean it
You'll probably say that it was juvenile
But I think that I deserve to smile

Bust windows out your car
But it don't compare to my broken heart
You can never feel how I felt that day
Until that happens, baby you don't know pain, no

You should know it
I ain't sorry, you deserved it
After what you did to me, you deserved it
I ain't sorry, no, no, no

You caused me pain
Even though what you did to me was much worse
I had to do something to make it hurt, yeah

Oh, but why am I still crying?
Why am I the one who is still crying?
Oh, oh, you really hurt me, baby
You really, you really hurt me, babe

Hey, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey
Now watch me, you
Now watch me
I bust the windows out your car*

JUST TO LET YOU KNOW HOW YOU BROKE MY HEART; AND SHATTERED IT INTO PIECES~

2010-08-24T08:10:00.000-07:00

So I am writing this while I am just so restless in the room. At times when I think about it, I just cry to myself thinking why life has to be this hard.
Be it relationships, family, work and school. I may seem different in person that I am in virtual world.
My life is not that great afterall.
I still have alot to achieve and I have alot to learn.
I have been suffering alot lately, and only God knows what I am going through.
DEPRESSION, I LOATHE THAT WORD!
I am soft, yes but please don't push your luck and don't press my trigger button!
I SWEAR I HAVE BEEN VERY PATIENT!
To think that I could have a peace of mind here with dad and mom here in Malaysia, I still have to think about home. Oh goodness!
I just feel so upset thinking about everything!
What more do I have to do to make things better?
Tell me!
What do you want from me?
I am trying my very best to be mentally focused but I am emotionally weak!
Is it a test from God?
I have had enough, my life is ruined as it is,
With all the drama and pressure!
I am hoping for the best but who am I to kid?
I know things wont be better and I know things wont be okay.
I feel so lost again and again.
I feel like running but I don’t know where to go.
Daddy lied to me about going KL,
He brought me to Genting Highlands instead!
Because I have been bugging him to bring me to the theme park!
And he suprised me well!
Thanks a billion daddy! You’re the best!
And as usual, being the only pampered girl,
I shopped for make up, food and CHOCOLATES~
Woots!
It’s just so fun!
Never ending fun!
And suddenly mummy showed me a text that shattered my heart into pieces!
I just feel so hurt reading her text!
And suddenly everything about my past came back!
It was like a flashback,
From the man who broke my heart into pieces,
To the one person whom knows just how I am since I was a kid.
I hurts like hell!
I swear!
I am really trying to pull myself back together so please help me by leaving me alone.
Go do what you want just leave me the hell alone, please!
I am crying myself to sleep every night,
And I just need my boys!
They are so supportive of everything that I do!
I need them and they know that!
I got them hot keychains well I don’t know what else to get for them!
Got adex this hot sexy womanly-figured keychain in red,
Got hubs a bike keychain in silver
And buruma the BFF, a gun keychain in blue*
Hope you boys like it!
So I just want to go back to school since I need to mug for exams!
Wish me luck yeah?
Gotta head to bed now,
Goobye Malaysia,
Hello back Singapore ;’(
Xoxo

2010-08-19T13:34:00.000-07:00

Again, my eyes are just so stubborn, I can't sleep!

Bummer~

And I am just listening to Indon music ;)

I had a blast Iftar with BFF last night, need I remind you I was all noneng2x due to lack of sleep?

So I went M.A.C with buruma to check out my base!

The salesgirl recommended me to get N37 foundation with NC42 compact and there goes my money!

I guess my current base looks fairer than usual, so I wanna go for a natural color ;)

M.A.C makeup is superb!

After which we headed to geylang serai, just me and BFF <3

We ate alot! I had otah otah, ayam percik, and ramlee burger while BFF ate kueh koleh, Japanese balls and ramlee burger!

We were so full we could barely walk!

So the motive of us going Geylang was to survey my baju Raya and apparently I did!

Wanted to buy it so bad but I needed mom's approval cause I don't want mummy to scream at me if I were to wear too revealing cause mom's so strict!

Trust me ;)

And so I had two colors in mind, black and gold!

Great combination for this year's Raya!

Planning to get feather in black, peacock and chandelier earings from DIVA

Shoes prolly from Aldo so mummy get ready okay lolx!

I am too pampered I know!

Oh well, being the only child is hip and happening after all woots~

xoxo

2010-08-18T15:46:00.000-07:00

Time Check; 6.46 am

Current Condition: Half Awake; Eyes Half Opened*

Current Location: Paradise(BED)

Current Song: Just the way you are~

Okay I am lame, but who cares?

Lolx!

I can't put myself to sleep, and I have nothing better to do, I am sooo free so yea..

Nothing else could make me happier than blogging!

My earpiece is sey to full blast so I am happily listening to music while dancing and typing happily!

I just love my week, only for now that is cause next week is the start of revision!

Guess my other mates are so busy preparing for exams and I have to admit I am a bummer!

But when I am focused, I give my all woots~

Anyways, I am suppose to accompany BFF to Sim Lim Sq later to check out on electronic gadget!

The three things that interest me would me gadgets, media and make up!

Not forgetting LV whoppeeee~

I have not been sleeping well lately and I guess I am at a losing end!

Skin condition is worsened need to seek Rapellez for help!

Already booked ten sessions with them and thank God it's worth every penny!

If not mom will kill me!

Okay, so she's getting me IPHONE! Had such a tough time choosing between IPHONE 4 and IPHONE 3GS but ended up choosing 3GS instead!

She asked me 'Kakak BB or IPHONE?'

Knowing me, I wanted BB so bad but the line's a lill expensive I heard?

So ended up choosing IPHONE and if anything were to happen to the phone, I want a NOKIA phone can?

Spoilt brat! My mom calls me, lolx!

Couldn't agree with her more, coming from the only daughter she has!

Her expectations too high, sometimes it stresses me out!

Despite being hard and tough, I condone to everything she says,

Cause she loves me so God damn much!

Oops~ Posa posa!

Cannot curse anyhow! Mummy so cute, she prayed I cursed lesser, be more attentive in class, be less stubborn and be like hubs, not a SPENDTHRIFT? -.-

I sigh and prayed to Allah just to make her stay with me until I die!

Which I hope will happen because I am such a melodramatic queen and I need mom all the time!

I complain about everything to her, from a scar on my chin, to the pimple on my face, to the clothes that I dislike wearing cause it was too SOPAN lolx!

She's my all basically and I love her much so Allah, please don't take her away from me just yet, I need her all my life!

LOVE YOU MUMMY, TRUCLOADS!

xoxo~

2010-08-17T16:23:00.000-07:00

I guess this is the longest post that ever exist in my blogspot.

I had to let it out I swear it's killing me much ;'(

I have been thinking alot about me and hubs (md hazwan) and our relationship!

What makes me so upset is that we love each other so much and yet we can't be together.

I don't have you here with me hubs, it's too painful, It's too dreadful!

I feel like a living corpse!

I can move on so easily with others but when it comes to you, I don't have the heart to do so!

It is eating me up inside! Cinta ini membunuhku*

The song that has been playing in my mind by D'massiv!

I can't lie to you about anything and you know that, baby!

I tried to forget about you, but I can't and I don't mean to make you feel insecure,

I just feel so lost sometimes!

People who have negative thoughts would say 'Move on by, you can find someone better'

But those who know me well would say 'Please be patient by, Allah is testing you'

I have brains of my own I know but sometimes thinking about it, I cry myself to sleep!

I swear it never hurt this bad!

He treated me like a queen, he really appreciated me, in EVERY way!

The way he's proud to hold my hand, the way he smiles at me while I'm clumsy all over,

The way he hugs me to sleep, even when I snore which I hope I don't!

The way he compliments me whenever he stares me deep into my eyes causing me to have goosebumps,

The way we chat for hours, the way he pampers me by being so patient carrying my bag filled with trash,

Everything!

He is the one, I believe so because each time I pray to God he's in my mind!

It's just the way he is, to hell with what others say, he's quiet or shy, or boring,

I don't even care! He's opposite me, totally opposite of me,

I'm an extrovert, while he's otherwise,

I am friendly he's not,

I'm outspoken, he's quiet but who gives a FUCK?

I just love him the way he is,

And I don't care about others, even if he can't be there with me/ for me all the time,

He's still in my heart!

He will always be~

I promise you hubs, no matter what, you're always my no 1!

xoxoxooxoxoxooxoxoxo~

2010-08-04T02:56:00.000-07:00

Okay I am just so tensed now!

I am just so tired emotionally, physically and mentally!

I honestly feel as though the whole world is tumbling down on me..

It hurts to the core!

Everyone around me fears I might hurt myself, and my mom is very much concerned about my well being!

Well something about me that you should know, If I am upset, I tend to be alone, and that means deactivating Fb, and I'll normally off my phone!

It's just the way I am, really!

Judge me all you want, I've heard so much about me already!

Buat lah fitnah, aku dah tak kuasa lagi,

I just need a peace of mind!

That's all nothing more, okay?

I am going shopping with my BFF today, and prolly get something for myself!

I need it really! Have been always at home or in school, and I hate crowds!

Claustrophobic~

I wonder how am I suppose to face the crowd during fasting month later, sighs.

Anyhow, I am planning to take up my Class 3 license!

But I have no idea when I can do so!

School's taking most of my time and I have not been modeling for quite sometime now, sheesh!

And I still think of quiting, I need to do something more than this, am still considering!

And my personal life...

Gosh, where do I start?

And when does it end?

I can just pray to Allah to make me strong..

I have enough of everything..

And this saturday I am heading to Malacca!

I need a break, from everything!

Really.. big time!

Done of feeling so miserable after reading a text message, done of being nice, done of complaining, done of getting hurt done of swallowing the pain, done of crying, done of everything!

My eyes are sooo red now, and I've been crying inside, I am crippled!

I need a getaway!

Pretty soon, and there I have it!

Can't wait to meet my girls, really!

xoxo~

2010-08-04T02:50:00.000-07:00

For Men: Things you should never say to your girlfriend

Let's be honest, men have a reputation for occasionally blurting out Statements without thinking through how insensitive they may sound to others.

This can cause potentially disastrous situations if the person being addressed is your partner. Even if she doesn't dump you on the spot, chances are your ill-conceived comment will not only knock her confidence but also make her question why she's going out with you.

This scenario is easily avoidable even if you're in the habit of speaking without fully engaging your brain.

Read on as we reveal 10 things you should never say to your girlfriend.

"My ex was much better at that..."If there's one golden rule in life it is to never - repeat, never - tell your current squeeze that she doesn't measure up to her predecessor. Particularly, if what you say has anything even remotely to do with the bedroom, clothes, cooking, driving... hell, just about everything short of manslaughter.

"I didn't bother getting you a birthday card this year. They're just so pointless, aren't they?"Er, no. Not in a woman's mind they're not. In fact, greeting cards form the cornerstone of female relationships in a way blokes will never understand. It's all thanks to a bizarre form of Victorian-style etiquette that requires female friends to constantly send each other cards on so-called important dates to show they 'care'.

"What are you thinking?"We all know this is something that women like to randomly hurl at blokes purely to mess with their brains. But that's no excuse to retaliate.

"Know what? Your friend has got an amazing body. Do you think she works out?"There's a very real chance your other half may go nuclear at this point. Not in any fist-flailing, send-you-to-casualty way, but in a manner that's all together more sinister and alarming.

To begin with she'll probably just say something like "yes, she's really pretty" to politely agree but deep down she will instantly become be a boiling pit of angst as she begins a horrifyingly intense period of introspection. And guess who'll suffer both barrels of her body-related whining? You Silly man!

"Crikey, fetch my sunglasses! Are you really going to wear that?"Duck. Now. Better still, sprint out the door and bolt it behind you. Not only will she have spent hours - even days - selecting her garb for your night out, there's every chance she will have lost weight and stumped up a shed-load of cash for the privilege of wriggling into it too.

The best possible outcome is that she retaliates with a heavy-footed stomp up the stairs, followed by a two-hour trawl through her wardrobe and a sternly delivered "So. Is this better?" when she reappears. Not a good night to scuff her shoes or spill beer on her tights. No siree.

"Do you think you should be eating that?"Only the clinically insane would even consider uttering this phrase. And even then they'd probably have the nous to stop perilously short.

On the other hand it is 100% guaranteed to get you dumped. So if you're looking for a way out of a relationship, it might be worth the risk of serious injury!

"You're only saying that because you've got your period."Ouch! This particular observation is akin to inventing a time machine to the days where women were seen and not heard, barred from education and treated as a second-class citizen in just about every way imaginable. Or, at least, that's how she will view it.

There's a very real chance that the dainty little vixen you fell for will turn into a full-scale banshee at this point and possibly plot to murder you in your sleep at a later date.

"Sarah!!!" (screamed in the middle of sex when her name's not, er, Sarah)Even Houdini would struggle to get out of this one. In fact, you've more chance of being selected for the All Blacks than cobbling together a convincing cover story about her mishearing what you said in the throws of passion.

Sadly, this is just one of those occasions where you need to get on your knees and grovel. Lots. Just be prepared that no matter how many roses or fancy meals you buy, or how many presents you surprise her with, this event will be mentioned in every single row you have until the end of time.
"I love you" (without meaning it)Women are so used to meeting scoundrels that most will take this kind of utterance with a pitcher of salt - particularly, if you've had a few too many chocolate liquors.

Yet that still won't stop them from believing it deep down.

So if you don't mean it, the end result is always going to be heartache for the one in the skirt. It's quite simple really: do not say these words unless you truly, deeply and honestly mean it. Otherwise, it is guaranteed to literally end in tears and separation. Plus, very possibly, a stilettoed half-volley in the unmentionables.

"Marriage? Not for me. And kids? I'd rather dig my eyes out with a rusty spoon..."It doesn't matter if you're enjoying a college fling or a full-blown romance, a woman will always want to know that she's dating someone who at least shows vague hints of being a loving, caring human being.
You don't have to say that she's "the one" or that you want to settle down with her - in fact, that's the last thing she'll probably want to hear.
But you need to give the impression that you are at least capable of compassion and are not simply interested in a quick roll in the hay. Even if that is all you are actually interested in.

2010-08-02T18:46:00.000-07:00

I am so tired!

So mentally tired!

I've been running from my responsibilities as a student!

Blearghhhhh~

I just don't give a fuck anymore.

I'm tired of school, really!

Super tired!

But I still want my diploma!

It's just that so much has happened lately,

Causing my family and I some misunderstandings!

Don't you people get it?

I just prefer staying with my adopted family!

FUCK IT, READ MY LIPS, FUCK IT!

I don't need you to tell me I'm this I'm that, okay?

I am tired of your nonsensical act!

You people look down on others, My God!

The first time you saw my best friend, buruma you mentioned ...

'Ini bestfren kau? Tak malu ke keluar ngan bangla?'

Sial la! I am offended okay?

You people are no where near him!

He's a saint! He doesn't talk about others in a negative way?

What you think you're good isit?

Please dweh! Only MALAIKAT are perfect!

Not even you!

I may be a black sheep or stupid or whatever you call it,

Least I am not a pretender!

Oh I wish you read this, really!

Don't be a two-faced bitch!

In front of people you act baik, hehe haha

Behind them, you talk!

Fuck la this kinda people!

You want, be sincere, don't act baik k!

You say I make up stories!?

Blearghhhhhhhhhhh!

I keep your messages kiddo!

Me Minah? Look who's talking aye?

Calling me pukimak, jijik all?

Time lambat k wanna talk like that! Please deh!

I used all those words long ago, and I am not proud of it!

Some sister you are, showing such negative eg to me huh?

Lolx!

CRAP!

And now you making up rumors I have an affair?

Ish ish ish, Dasyat eh kau!

BEAR IN MIND, I WILL NEVER FORGIVE YOU DUNIA AND AKHIRAT!

Even if you beg!

Buat fitnah lagi la k?

So can add to the dosa you made k sis!?

It's okay, mummy told me, Kakak, Biar orang buat kita, jangan sesekali kita buat orang!

Aku dah tak tahan nie, must let it out!

Now I really want you to FUCK OFF from my life!

Just FUCK OFF FUCK OFF AND FUCK OFF!!

Erti enggak?

2010-07-29T19:45:00.000-07:00

My lecturer mentioned; Class dismissed!

Like it's going to make any difference?

I'm staying till late anyway..

I am bored to death!

School, you are the cause of my depression and agony!

When will you end?

I wanna get my dip and fly like a bird!

I wanna get LVs, Chanel, Prada and all the exquisite goods there is in this world!

I am deprived of my sleep,

Depressed with love, for not being able to be there for me during weekdays,

And I am facing problems with my JAVA pages.

FUCK.

It hurts like FUCK when you have alot of people around you and yet they can't help you.

It's friday today, so let's just not curse any further, shall we?

I miss lying beside hubs.

I miss being with him.

I miss his kissed and hugs.

And yes, he is a pure saint. Mom loves the boy alot!

And I mean alot.

Always messaging me now and then asking about our rship.

She is worried and concerned, especially about me!

ROFL.

Speaking of which, I intend to get mom a guess bracelet

Whadya think?

Lolx!

Macam nigga pulak aku nie, lolx!

Okay go~

Get mom that. Once I work, get her an LV bag

But she's diff from me ;)

She doesn't like branded goods, she just like...

I also dunno what she likes, lol

She's just simple, period.

So mom, I'll do something special for you this year okay?

xx♥

2010-07-27T19:47:00.000-07:00

Good morning world! I have so much to say today!

Before that, I apologize if I haven't been updating my blog,

And some may ask, why I have two forums just to share my life with you.

Reason being tumblr is more fancy apt for me to reblog whatever the hell I want and blogspot is more personal.

And why Auby Laraesa Adams?

Well for starters, I have split personality, something you all should know,

And no, I am not dumb for sharing this with you, just a self intro about myself,

Auby is dominant, on stage, that is, and confident! That for sure! Complex, fickle and hard to please, lolx!

She is someone who is able to be so cocky and so elegant, she is someone who has fire in her eyes!

Very accurate and very firm.

The real me?

My name is Nurul Jannah, well NJ is someone not so glamorous, simple-girl-next-door.

When I am on stage, I am Auby, when in real life I am NJ ;D

Hope I answered your questions.

I am brought up to be as such. I am not pretending. I am taught to be modest and humble.

I thank my dad for that, really!

He taught me to be so humble at times I just don't care about my profession.

I am not ashamed of donating, and I don't give a damn to who I befriend with.

And yes, I really don't.

So do not be shocked if I talk to everyone;

I mean cleaners, 3 for one dollar uncle, even grandparents/grandmas.

I can even be close to your mom.

Lolx!

That's what my own mother mentioned. I am too friendly at times.

But it's okay, I am what I am, I do not live to please anyone so yeah!

Moving on,

SCHOOL IS DRIVING ME TO INSANITY!

Dear Allah, please give me strength!

I am in the verge of giving up already!

Amin!

Fasting month is nearing thank God!

I can't wait for deng deng!! omg!!!

Arrivederci Bella~

2010-07-25T05:18:00.000-07:00

Whoah! Since sunday I'm home!

Do you know how stressful that is?

I mean there is virtual world and all, but I'm used to going out, modeling and hanging out with my boys all of a sudden I have to stay home?

Bummer!

It's Like Mental Torture! I Swear!

I never felt so restless before!

I am a stubborn kid, proven and mom actually lied about being amputated!

She wanted me to stay home, can you believe it?

I am just too bored really, tsk!

And I am not going to cancel anymore shoots!

I was suppose to judge a photography competition yesterday, also I was offered to act on the upcoming Suria's drama!

And I called mom, She screamed her lungs and say 'YOU BETTER REST HOME! GIVE ME THEIR NUMBER, I'LL TALK TO THEM PERSONALLY'

Macam singa mak aku, I replied, and giggled while nodding my head saying okay!

And all of a sudden, I felt like eating Mars Balls!

If you have no idea what I'm talking about, you can check out my pictures in the folder MY BOYS II

I tell you the mars balls got me munching and singing! Superb!

Woots~

Next week, meeting Spore's top notch models Diana K and Anna Chan~

Should we watch sorcerer's apprentice or salt?

Still considering, and prolly we'll be having dinner at Simpang, yay!

I still owe Jojo his test shoot!

Tomorrow is my Quiz 2 for DMSD, wish me luck yeah?

And I am thinking of adding a chat box, weeeee~

Till then take care readers,

xoxo~

2010-07-18T18:16:00.001-07:00

I am dead serious this time, I am in pain!

No more acting, this is for real! Bummer!

I injured my right leg and it hurts like hell!

Omg!

I am not keen to visit the clinic but I have to, dear God please save me!

I really need to go school, I've missed out in alot of things, already ;'(

Hopefully by Wednesday I will recover, Insyallah!

Eversince the accident, everything has become topsy turvy, and maybe I just need some rest!

I can't expect everyone to be there for me or with me all the time, so I have to be independent!

Insyallah I will pull through this time ;)

Amin...

And I know it's so hard to let Sephora go but I have to!

Hubs, I miss you, and I need you..

FOREVER~

2010-07-14T05:56:00.000-07:00

Hello everyone!

I just came back from dinner and as usual, I spend most of my time on virtual world, what else is new?

Went to popeye with Adex and a bunch of mixed boys and girls were staring at me and adex, thank God I wasn't wearing jeans, prolly I'd be wondering whether I zipped my pants or not lol

I was busy browsing through the pictures in facebook when someone knocked at adex's door.

To my surprise, it was Ezzaye!

She came with Royal cakes, chocolate!

I woke up immediately!

How blessed can I be?

Every morning when I wake up, I receive text messages from my boys, my friends; closest, who will ask about my well being, whether I had my breakfast yet, not forgetting my parents who spoils me with electronic gadgets!

And every night before I sleep, I have my pillars of faith asking whether I had my dinner or supplement yet, what time to wake me up in the morning to go to school, or to fix my schedule for me as I am so forgetful!

And I have a personal trainer, a personal alarm clock, a personal banker, and etc.

How lucky can a girl be?

While other girls have one man by her side, I have three to protect me, to guide me, and to be by my side always!

And I cry myself to sleep at times thinking what I have done to receive such treatment!

I love my career and I also love my future! I am really slacking with school, and I need to buck up, honest! No more supp papers, I aint gonna let my past be a hindrance from me getting my cert!

And most importantly, I wanna make my parents proud!

Please, dear Allah, answer my prayers!

I really want to graduate from TP with a diploma!

Okay gtg now, need to buck up!

xoxooxoxo~

2010-07-10T10:08:00.000-07:00

Such a perfect date! Such a perfect day!

I had a shoot at Woodlands Waterfront with Elly and Ella!

Weather; Raining cats and dogs, and I just recovered from flu! Oh well!

It was enthralling indeed as I had two different shoots, one is the casual wear and the other is jerseys!

So me and Elly wore Man U jerseys and I gotta admit I love the shots, pretty amazing!

There were two photographers today, Ella's cousin and Izzat!

We didn't waste much time and everything went smoothly Alhamdulillah!

It all ended at about 6 30pm and I rushed home to meet hubs since we're celebrating our first month anniversary!

We went Swensens at Tampines Mall and had dinner there!

Laughed out loud and enjoyed our meal when we knew deep down inside we couldn't meet as often as before ;'(

I have to be strong mentally, physically and emotionally!

I have to distract myself everyday so that I don't miss him much!

I hate the fact that he's leaving but I have to understand that he has to serve the nation!

It feels so wierd when you are so used to spending time with the person and when he or she is not there you feel so lost!

Hubs put me to sleep every night and I wake up to see his face on my door whenever he comes to pay me a visit, and when he is not there, I feel so empty!

We went EL-SHEIKH after dinner for a sheesha session and as usual I was dizzy!

Lol I know I am so kental hehe ;D

We headed home after that, and he kissed my forehead, I love you hubs xoxo~

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY~

2010-07-07T06:46:00.000-07:00

I had a blast today!

I washed my bike ( Sephora ) with hubs and adex!

I actually bought my first TURTLE WAX and my sephora is looking good!

Swear!

I am so happy that I am really focused on her because I have not been pampering her all this while and she gets really upset whenever I abandon her or ride with Buruma or Adex!

My sephora is alive, it gets jealous easily!

I intend to let her go actually, but when I think to myself again,

I spend so much on her, ( ONLY GOD KNOWS )

Fell with her, stood up with her, and she accompanied me everywhere I go so why should I let her go easily?

She has always been there for me and she is a sentimental value.

Only because she is a gift from my dad!

So I am gonna work extra hard to maintain Sephora and INSYALLAH I will pull through this ;D

Allah, help me Amin!

And I swear I am struggling with my EWA project!

I am so stressed with the codings and I just feel like jumping off from the plane!

Omg!

Mummy and daddy bought me the derma skin care! WEEEE!

It feels so good to be pampered since I am the only daughter in my foster family!

I just love them so much! Mom gave me an Ipod shuffle too, but I want an Ipod touch ;'(

Boohoo~

Soon, will ask for either that or a BB?

Too much to ask but I am spoilt, still, I am not taking advantage of it not to worry!

I am a simple girl, I lead a simple life and it remains that way!

xoxooxxxooooxooxo~

2010-07-07T06:44:00.000-07:00

I gossip, so i guess i’m a bitch. I show a little skin, so i guess i’m a skank. I like to paint my nails, so i guess i’m a prep. I say whats on my mind, so i guess i’m ignorant. I’ve cried, so i guess i’m high maintenance. I’ve been heartbroken, so i guess im pathetic. I’ve been stabbed in the back, so i guess i’m a drama queen. I look in the mirror, so i guess i’m conceited. I’ve been depressed, so i guess im an emo. I’ve talked to someones boyfriend, so i guess i’m a slut. I like to wear make up, so i guess im a fake. So throw me a label; you’ll do it anyways. fuck what you see & fuck what you heard this is the real me ♥

2010-07-05T01:45:00.000-07:00

So I just woke up from dreamland and apparently I am in school! None of my members completed our projects yet, I felt so stupid for a moment.

Didn't manage to verify the mistakes in the codings!

I had a conversation with my team mate, Ang Kang..

Auby; Ang Kang, you know how to do or not?

Ang Kang: You think I know meh?

Auby turned to Buruma..

Buruma: *Laughing*

Auby: Oh Well, let's pack up, we still have tomorrow!

So tonight I intend to call Kelvin ( swear he's a pro ) and ask him for help!

I guess this is the only chance for me to get good grades since I have been slacking alot in school!

Well, since when have I been a fan of school?

I am a bummer, really and I just don't care much about what others wanna say because I am not a hypocrite!

I share what I feel, even when I know my quotes are bold!

I touch on controversial issues which might affect anyone, but it's my FACEBOOK, and I write what I please, that applies for both TWITTER and TUMBLR!

If you don't like it, jollywell don't read it okay?

Like I mentioned before, I live not to please anyone, and trust me, when I conpliment someone, it comes from the bottom of my heart! I mean what I say. Honest ;D

I really appreciate my friends in facebook because they are so nice to me!

Every single day, when I am in the VIRTUAL WORLD, I always look forward to seeing my facebook friends!

You guys really rock my socks! Call me exaggerating or whatever but I meant well!

Whenever I post something on my wall, you appreciate the quotes I share and you relate to me well! For that I have to thank you! Least you guys aren't fake and that is what I appreciate most!

Mom asks me why I am not out all the time and I answered her I love being in bed talking to my friends over msn or fb!

I do meet my boys or other friends too, don't get me wrong ;D

And finally, I have forgotten everything about the past, put it behind, moved on with my one and only, Hubs!

Will be gg out on a date with him this weekend and hopefully everything goes well for him after the 12th this month!

Amin.

I know I don't deserve you hubs, you are such a great guy! Such a saint, and you come from a religious family but I am trying my best to prove to you I can change ;)

I know you have never really dated anyone, or even held a girl's hand before, or even sat next to a girl and watch stars at night, or been close to someone the way you are with me but rest assured, I really you, hubs!

In every possible way, I do! You are such a rare gem and I promise you I will change for the betterment of myself, I wont disappoint you, Buruma, Adex, my mom, and my family!

Above all, I won't disappoint my Dad!

Insyallah! Love you all, xoxoxo~

2010-07-04T09:07:00.000-07:00

So others have been asking me why is it so easy for me to move on,

So here is my answer......

I met a nice man three years back by the name of Sam,

Fell in love with him, been with him on and off for three years and this year, finally, I told myself it's the end of our rship..

Reason being I have had enough of his nonsense!

Enough of giving me false hope, enough of hurting me emotionally and mentally, causing me distractions which made me depressed completely!

I told myself that this is it, this time round I am not going to dwell about the past anymore, I told myself that I will move on, the moment he cheated on me!

WOMEN WOULD RATHER BE DUMPED THAN BEING CHEATED!

You lied, you went around asking for my friends' contacts, contacted your ex gf who was pathetically seeking for empathy and sympathy and put the blame on me and bitched behind my back?

Get a life, you jerk!

And stop bitching about me, because you know you are in the wrong!

So go find another victim, and satisfy yourself by making her your puppet because FINALLY..

I am done with your crap!

So stop coming back because I am moving on, GOD This feels soooo good!

And FYI, I am done with you and I am dead serious!

Read my lips F**K OFF!

2010-07-04T08:41:00.000-07:00

FUN FUN FUN!

I had a blast with hubs yesterday! We were both true Sporeans! Hubs and I went out in white!

Woot!

We went for the NDP premiere and it was drizzling and we headed to Far East Plaza to dig into mars balls!

If you haven't noticed I am a chocoholic! And I swear I love MARS BALLS!

I have been sharing with everyone I know!

After which we headed to PUNCAK to have our dinner and as usual I gave Hubs half of my food!

We went straight to Changi Airport and met my cousins there as we're all saying goodbye to our aunt as she's leaving for a trip to CROATIA!

Wish I had the luxury of travelling, I have been dying to visit ROME!

Or VENICE for that matter, honeymoon there perhaps?

We headed home after that, had a conversation with hubs;

Hubs: B, are you sleepy?

Me: No B, I am not..

Hubs: Then why are you talking about puppet show?

Me: I donno... but we really have a puppet show, and there are elephants there..

Hubs: Okay b, I am going to hang up now, sleep okay?

Me: okay...

That's how our conversation ended..

The very next day, me and Caramel met up, talked about life, went to eat Mars Balls again and I ordered 8 mars balls with Vanilla ice cream!

Phewwwww! Cannot carry, extremely delicious!

Then hubs fetched me at far east and accompanied him for dinner and went home!

Fabulous day, fabulous weekend, back to school later at nine,

Woot!

xoxo~

Cousins Are Loved!

2010-07-02T13:08:00.001-07:00

The Weather was apt for me to rest my head on my soft pillows and just snore till the next morning!

But what happened today was really worthwhile!

I met up with cousins at 4 after going to the doctor, I am down with gastric flu, and after which I headed to Bugis Village to meet my cousin's wife, Kak Radhiah!

To my surprise, her younger sister was my junior!

I feel so old, PFFT! But then again, age is just a number you know!

So we headed to Tong Seng to have our early dinner and met up with Adex and Fee ;)

Dyan was late due to her interview with IR so we all headed straight to AL-SHEIKH after that!

Al Sheikh- warm, cosy, relaxed but it wasn't air-conditioned and I just lie down flat due to exhaustion!

Fee, myself and Dyan ordered Iced Choc, while Adex ordered Coke (usual) and Kak Rhadiah ordered Peach Tea ;))

Choice of Sheesha Flavor; Double Apple

For once in my life, I felt as though I was high on drugs!

I don't smoke due to asthma and I never really tried sheesha before so I know I might sound KENTAL but who cares?

I just loved the atmosphere and I love the ambiance!

Once Aunt arrived, we wrapped it up and went to Iluma to catch Eclipse!

And suddenly Dyan, who's working @ the cinema told me a story..

Dyan: Hi mam, how may I help you?

Customer: Yes, can I have a charcoal please?

Dyan: Sorry mam we don't see charcoals here.

Customer: (Hand was pointing towards nachos)

Dyan: Talked in a very slow pace; Oh, you meant NACHOS?

Customer: (Feeling so embarrassed because bf laughed at her) Yes.

Dyan: (Giggling) Yes, that would be $7 mam

Customer: Thank you (Mood changes abruptly)

Dyan: All SMILES;D

My baby cousin is hilarious! She mentioned the woman who ordered the nachos was kind of cocky so she hit it hard on her, apologies on her behalf*

We headed home and by that time it was really late so I had hubs waiting for me at the bus stop!

The moment I alight, Hubs carried me because I was too dizzy! He's such a sweetheart! Send me to my door, and mummy asked, 'Kak, bodyguard akak hantar?'

I replied 'Yes myy, he did'

xoxoxoxoxo~

Addicted!

2010-07-01T08:44:00.001-07:00

Another hectic day Blearghhhh!

I had to sit and hear my lecturer complain, and I was on the verge of tears!

I have to admit, I know nuts about codings and softwares!

I felt like a complete bimbo in class today!

And I was happily sleeping through lecture!

I was so depressed about term tests and all haix!

To begin with, I don't even know why I choose this course lolx!

I'm halfway through so might as well finish it right?

After this then I can talk about my future planning yea?

Went out with ma for threading at Serangoon after school today and boy, the place was packed!

Had some ladoo and samosa!

I am proud to be an indian ;)

After which, met adex and hubs and headed to LJS @ tamp, camwhore a lilltle and headed home!

Ma and I giggled about the incident that took place in the bus, God that was hilarious!

And went on facebook as usual, and It keeps my mind off certain things, like how depressed I am in my real life, or about bgr issues, or about my past, or how much I hate jerks or women who look down on others when they're not perfect themselves, alot more..

And my facebook friends are so nice to me, so sincere in fact and everything in my virtual world is loved by me, what more in real life?

I have my boys, my family, true friends and cousins who will always be there with me and for me through thick and thin and I don't need anything or anyone else for that matter ;D

I just need my pillars of strength by my side, thats' enough for me.

I'm turning in soon, I have a shoot later on whoppeee~

xoxooxo~

Addicted

2010-07-01T08:44:00.000-07:00

Ola

2010-06-30T06:56:00.000-07:00

Whoa! What a day!

I went to school, accompanied hubs to pay his installments with ma and headed to the polyclinic after that.

Hubs is down with fever and I am worried sick! Tsk! The man is so stubborn, Masyallah!

I had to literally wear for him the jacket while he was busy playing with my hair, playing with my face and all, I almost screamed at the top of my lungs when Buruma told me to control my volume, and he was laughing out loud, My Goodness!

I was trying to grab hold of him and in the end I slept on his shoulders!

Extremely comfortable, just like my soft pillow! ROFL

And the doc eventually gave him mc for two days.

We chilled at my crib and I fed him rice! So manja!

And again, he lied on my stomach, while hearing it making sounds, but I ate alot actually!

Buruma told me a story that made my day!

He went into the bus and it was crowded

So apparently there was this uncle who had an empty seat beside him,

And he was sleeping soundly,

So, Buruma tapped his shoulders slowly saying, "Uncle, sorry"

Immediately the old man took out his wallet and gave Buruma his ez-link card thinking that he was the bus conductor!

EVERYONE LOOKED AT BURUMA!

Omg! At that point his face turned red, and he kindly told the uncle he wanted to sit beside the uncle.

The uncle quickly kept his ez-link card, and then went back to sleep!

I Swear I was in the verge of tears, it was so hilarious!

You should see Buruma's facial expression!

Effortless I tell you! Honest!

So they prayed at my place ( And FYI, my boys are super religious )

And headed home after that.

Me and adex went to Mac to get cheeseburgers that we love and boy, I tell you they taste so good!

I am a meat lover and will always be!

Have a good night readers,

xoxo~

Clueless

2010-06-29T08:47:00.000-07:00

I'm in the loo now while waiting to bathe and I realized that I have not been updating anything about my life..

Guess I've been MIA alot and I've been super busy with school, shoots and acting..

Gosh my schedule is so hectic and It's been months that I updated my blog so here I am..

For starters, I miss my family alot. And I mean alot.

So I've decided to meet my cousins this coming Friday and I've arranged to go on a trip this December.

I'm looking forward to Raya, really! I've been happily designing my clothes you know, I am such a typical Sporean, so kiasu! Lolx!

I just need to escape from the busy life I am having, I've been too depressed with all my comments in Facebook and twitter, guess I am really done getting hurt or hurting the ones I love!

I need to get away, for some time so I plan to go for a facial, visiting batam sometime soon.

Too many plans. And I want to give Sephora a new look!

And I know you hate my new hair, I do too, Tsk!

Tangan gatal si Auby nie!

Omg!

Three months okay and I promise I wont cut anymore!

I want long long hair, in black, prolly big curls like VS ANGELS!

Wohooooo~

Can't wait.

School starts at 8. Bummer, and this sat's exam, haix!

Wish me the best of luck okay?

xoxo~

Cinta Ini Membunuhku

2010-06-29T08:01:00.000-07:00

Kau membuat ku berantakan
Kau membuat ku tak karuan
Kau membuat ku tak berdaya
Kau menolakku acuhkan diriku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sadari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

[Reff]
Kau hancurkan aku dengan sikapmu
Tak sadarkah kau telah menyakitiku
Lelah hati ini meyakinkanmu
Cinta ini membunuhku

Bagaimana caranya untuk
Meruntuhkan kerasnya hatimu
Ku sadari ku tak sempurna
Ku tak seperti yang kau inginkan

Cinta ini membunuhku....

It hurts to say this but it's true!

2010-04-08T01:36:00.000-07:00

Dearest God, please make me a stronger woman!

Each time I look into my phone, I see a picture of us together;

I see me in your eyes, Sam!

I hate this feeling*

I hate it when you do this to me!!

I hate the fact that I can never move on!!

What is it about me that is not good enough for you?

What is it about me that makes you this way?

Why do you have to hurt me this bad Sam?

What did I do to deserve such treatment from you?

I've changed dramatically for you..

But why do you do this to me?

Why are you so cruel and heartless?

Why are you such a jerk?

I'm trying to move on; But whenever I do, I think of you!

I stare at the wall in my house at night

In the day, I sleep!

The pain is excruciating!

It's beyond description Sam!

Take a gun, shoot me in the head!

I can't go on this way...

I can't suffer anymore!

Please stop hurting me this way!

Please stop playing or toying with women's heart!

Please stop doing this to others, Stop being a player Sam!

Stop being a brat and a heartless creature!

Learn to appreciate those who love you,

For I have always loved you Sam,

No matter how much you hurt me!

Stranded*

2010-04-04T10:17:00.000-07:00

Finally a peace of mind to write on my blog!

Alot happened today, sadly but true!

And honestly, why can't you just leave me alone?

I am trying to recover from a heartbreak!

And then this had to happen?

Sephora was hurt today!

Everything was fine today

And towards the end, we discovered Sephora's back tyre was punctured!

I was extremely upset, beyond words!

One thing after another

Why did it happened?

First, Sam ditched me hard, and then Sephora went missing, now her tyre?

Why is God testing me soo much lately?

Don't mention about losing besties, I've enough of that already!

I know I am busy all the time,

But honestly, I do remember my bffs!

I am trying to move on with my life now,

And am trying really hard to recover, but God, please give me time~

It's too much for me!

So much so I feel like giving up at times,

But I am stupid to do so,

I'm halfway through!

To success!

I can't let this ruin me, and God please answer my prayers!

I can't do this alone, I need my pillars of faith,

My friends, my family, my all!

Please, God, Don't take that away from me!

Please....

I am seeking for your understanding!

I need my pillars of faith!

Will upload my pictures with my boys;

Speaking of which, stop pestering me about my personal life!

I AM SINGLE!

Get it drilled in your head!

And I'm enjoying my life!

So stop making false accusations,

And F Off if you loathe me, or dislike me,

I don't owe anyone anything!

Catch my drift?

All I Ever Wanted*

2010-04-03T18:50:00.000-07:00

Tear up the photographs But yesterday won't let go

Every day, every day, every minute Here comes the emptiness

Just can't leave lonely alone Every day, every day, hey hey

This second-chancin's really getting me down

You give and taking everything I dreamed about

It's time you let me know, let me know just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was a simple way to get over you

 All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene

 Where every lie reveals the truth

Baby cause I all ever wanted All I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone

Don't wanna chase you around Every day, every day, every minute

I'd fall a thousand times Before I let you drag me down

 Every day, every day, hey hey

Your new beginning was a perfect ending

But I keep feeling we've already been here before

 It's time you let me know, let me know just let go

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was a simple way to get over you

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene

Where every lie reveals the truth Baby cause I all ever wanted All I ever wanted was you

 Tell me with so many out there

Why I always turn to you

Your goodbyes tear me down every time

And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me

 All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was a simple way to get over you

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene

 All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was a simple way to get over you

All I ever wanted, all I ever wanted Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene

Where every lie reveals the truth

Baby cause I all ever wanted All I ever wanted was you

Moving On...

2010-03-30T16:44:00.000-07:00

"You broke my spirit, my heart and my mind. I thought i would never be the same, but i'm still standing tall"

Only that this time round I am able to move on,

With a better future, I hope!

It takes two hands to clap,

They say, and let these hands do the talking!

As of today, I shall bring myself together and not ruin my future!

It hurts so bad to see the one you love loving someone else,

But to think back again, what the heck?

He ruined me completely, played with my emotions and mind,

Threatened me, worse, HIT ME IN PUBLIC,

And even contacted women behind my back, and then lied to me!

Caught me messaging other men whom I label as friends and then he's doing the same thing as well!

Now tell me, why should I be sitting here like a plum pudding when I know that he's happy with someone else?

Is it really worth it?

Come to think of it, No!

But subconscious mind is telling me yes!

Yet I know this can't be happening!

Why dwell about this when I know it's not going anywhere?

Since you like telling the whole world about me,

I am telling everyone about you!

You've hurt me so much this time,

And you know why I still come back to you to patch things up?

It's because of love, you scumbag!

Whenever we argue about something and end up going monotonous for a moment,

You write on your FB Wall as though I've done something behind your back!

Answer me, is there a point of time where I ever cheated or lie to you about the people I am contacting with or meet?

Have I ever done anything foolish that could cause you to hit me the way you did?

How heartless of a man can you be?

I've respected you and loved you wholeheartedly but you act like a 5yr old!

Problems are not supposed to be shared with public!

It shows what type of man you are!

How are you to guide me when you're contradicting yourself when you said, B, It's cyber world?

And all insecure about the people commenting my fb?

Isn't that childish?

And you uploaded all the pictures with you and those b*****s in your fb and those are what you called friends?

Is it me or you who's suppose to feel pissed?

It's not my lost,

Even I was warned by many that you're a player and to be careful!

Like I've mentioned before, and I hate repeating myself, but if this helps you to remember than I shall say this again..

So that it can be drilled in your thick skull!

I am brought up with friends who are boys who happened to be the best and sincere God damn friends there is in this world and I am grateful I have them!

On top of that, they really talked sense to me and now I can understand why!

You can put two people in a private place, and if they love you wholeheartedly, and sincerely, they won't do anything stupid behind your back!

Now, that's the truth!

I do not and I mean DO NOT like the idea of my man lying to me!

Let me stress out the keyword here,

'LIE'

Because if you lie once, you can lie again, am I not right?

So I guess I have done my part by clarifying everyone's doubt!

And it's time to move on, for real!

This time!

Tears Rolling Down My Cheeks!

2010-03-29T06:56:00.000-07:00

Sadness fills my heart!

It bleeds I swear!

I Still love you, I still do!

I wonder why, I tried not thinking about it!

Take my heart, take my tears, what more do you want from me?

I am not myself lately,

I am in depression!

Look at me, SARMADI KASSIM!

I am ruined completely!

Why do you do this to me?

I fall flat on the ground!

All I do is pretend!

I need to get away from you!

Of all the men I know, or been with,

You hit me the hardest!

You left footprints in my heart!

It bleeds, Sam!

It bleeds because of you!

I have lost my sense of touch and taste,

And probably the rest along the way!

I need to move on, I need to stay strong..

;-(

Another Heartbreak!

2010-03-25T05:24:00.000-07:00

Another one, over and over again aye?

Aren't you happy that you've caused me so much pain and grief Sarmadi Kassim?

What more do you want from me?

How long must I suffer?

You wish to contact women, so I am doing the same!

I don't need your I LOVE YOU text messages and empty hope and you're going on commenting other woman's profile!

Tsk!

Blame me for calling other people baby?

Look @ yourself!

I've had enough of you! For once, be a man! And be responsible!

Stop acting like a kid! I fucking hate you for hurting me this much!

I want to move on, you hold me back!

What is wrong with you?

What is wrong with your mind?

What the hell is your problem?

I can't sleep think or eat!

My mind is unstable!

FUCK YOU FOR DOING THIS TO ME!

Get it?

I hate you so much, so so much!

Go on, go on with your women!

I can't suffer anymore,

I've caught you red handed many times,

So it's my turn now, to turn the tables around~

2010-02-07T03:40:00.000-08:00

Lets' Talk Body

So, I guess I want to share this with everyone*

My trainer, Miss Falange, who is apparently one of the fittest woman I know, by far,

Is happy enough to tell me I can share about my training sessions with her ;D

So ladies, this is for you!

I love to eat no doubt about that, but at the same time I love to work out too!

You have look good to feel good, Agreed?

So for those who have dumbbells, work out both hands for 12x - EACH ( 3 sets )

Crunches - 100x, 50x Day, 50x Night*

Leg Race - 10x

Bridges - 1 Min

Lunges - 12x Each leg

Calves - 12x

And you are done! And don't forget to jog, 3 times around the stadium!

At your own convenience that is, since I'm close to Meridian Jc I just spend my jogging sessions there ;D

All the best, Ladies

Yours Truly, Sexist Auby

XOXO~

2010-02-06T07:39:00.000-08:00

I am a much stronger woman now,

All thanks to my loved ones!

My experience in life made me who I am today, a positive thinker*

I went through alot in life, and I must say life has taught me alot!

Some experiences are good, but the bad ones taught me to be stronger!

In relationships, women must not give their all,

What more trust their partner a hundred percent?

You can never trust nor love a man completely,

You will eventually lose yourself!

You must learn to love and appreciate yourself before loving someone or anyone else!

Let others tell you that you're ugly and let them criticise you for your imperfections!

Tell them, FUCK IT!

I say everyone is born with flaws are flaws are beautiful!

No human is PERFECT and only GOD Is PERFECTION!

Never let a man downgrade you and never let a man demoralize you!

That's what they are good at most! - Majority that is*

And may you find a partner that loves you beyond your flaws!

Love is never about tolerance,

Love is about acceptance!

Tolerating a person might lead you to domestic violence for when you are unable to control your

Anger or frustration you might end up hitting your partner,

Which is not right at all~

And even if you don't hurt or abuse your partner physically, you might end up affecting her emotionally!

I say that's even worse!

And ladies, please do not go to the extend of changing your features or yourselves for the ones you love for the sake of pleasing him!

You are ruining yourself!

So what if he compares you to another woman? A celebrity perhaps?

There might be A thousand and one dudes who appreciates you as a whole!

And stop giving your money to them!

You're just wasting your time! You need to learn to be strong and move on*

I've had enough of all this happening to my loved ones and now,

I dare to speak!

Because I believe everyone is born special!

To haters, FUCK OFF and Get a life! And to those who you love and love you,

Appreciate them! Your life will be happier, trust me!

Without losers! Less worry, and less stress!

Hail to all independent women!

XOXO~

2010-02-04T06:24:00.000-08:00

"FOR ONCE, LEARN HOW TO BE A MAN, A TRUE GENTLEMAN"

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted

And go..

And go drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
'Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy!

2010-02-02T03:05:00.000-08:00

Beauty Is An Illusion, But What Is Love?

Why does my heart bleed? Why is it that I feel at lost?

Once bitten, twice shy they say!

But this time round, it's tearing me apart, I swear!

I can only imagine my life being trapped in a position whereby my body is still in tact while my

Soul and mind is wandering around!

Living corpse, two words that describes myself now!

It's not even about jealousy or betrayal anymore!

It's about guilt and excruciating pain!

I am not melodramatic or delusional, Neither am I being exaggerating

I can only express my feelings via words*

Actions mean nothing to me anymore!

Neither does the word love, it's only words!

I do not believe when a man tells me he loves me, his words are cheap!

I do not believe in happy endings because it doesn't exist!

I do not believe in anything anymore,

Enough is Enough! This time I mean it!

Enough of the promises made,

Enough of all the time spent,

Enough of being and getting hurt!

Scarred, and Scared!

I fear love! I fear relationships and I certainly fear death!

Sinner am I to everyone around me, yet you have always been a part of me!

Deep down inside, I only fear of God!

Where has my life brought me, why is it that God test me so much?

I questioned myself, yet I want to be closer to God!

Praying = serenity; peace and calm

It will make me realise that I still have my pillars of faith around me!

Thank Allah for that!

I shall not dwell about it anymore,

I need to be STRONG!

I need to pull myself together and make sure I achieve whatever it is that I want in life,

Insyallah!

Amin*

2010-01-29T01:32:00.000-08:00

Victoria Secret, My All Time Favourite!

Isn't it amazing that Vs Products can now be found in Singapore?

I can't wait to get my hands on Love Spell!

Forever an arden fan of VS, XOXO ♥

2010-01-28T19:44:00.000-08:00

Facts that men should know;

1. Women love to shop. It is the one area of the world where they feel like they're actually in control.

2. Women love a bargain. The question of 'need' is irrelevant, so don't bother pointing it out. Anything on sale is fair game.

3. Women never have anything to wear. Don't question the racks of clothes in the closet; you 'just don't understand'.

4. Women need to cry. And they won't do it alone unless they know you can hear them.

5. Women will always ask questions that have no right answer, in an effort to trap you into feeling guilty.

6. Women love to talk. Silence intimidates them and they feel a need to fill it, even if they have nothing to say.

7. Women need to feel like there are people worse off than they are. That's why soap operas and Oprah Winfrey-type shows are so successful.

8. Women hate bugs. Even the strong-willed ones need a man around when there's a spider or a wasp involved.

9. Women can't keep secrets. They eat away at them from the inside. And they don't view it as being untrustworthy, providing they only tell two or three people.

10. Women always go to public restrooms in groups. It gives them a chance to gossip.

"It's Tough Being A Woman*"

Beauty

2010-01-27T06:42:00.000-08:00

Two words; Timeless Beauty!

It takes three steps to get beautiful flawless skin;

1. CLEANSING

Women who wear makeup should carry out a routine of cleansing, toning and moisturing turn back the clock each evening, as well as washing the face in the morning. 5 Minute Makeover Cleansing will remove old make-up and the grime and grease that have been accumulated during the day.

Remove mascara Lashes Unlimited with a cotton bud dipped in eye-dipped in eye-cleansing lotion. To make the job easier keep your hair off your face.
Remove the eyeshadow - Artistic Palletes - by gently wiping it off with a pad of clean cotton wool moistened with eye-cleansing lotion.
Pour a little face cleansing cream into the palm of one hand and dab it generously over the nose, chin, forehead and cheeks --- using two fingers of the other hand.
Massage the cream into the skin, starting under the throat, using a gentle upward motion.
Continue massaging the cream up to the forehead, using the fingertips.
Gently massage the cream from the eyes to the nose.
Massage cream back over the chin, which is particularly prone to blackheads. Use the index finger.
Remove the cream from the face with tissue pads in each hand. Start under the chin and work over the cheeks and on to the forehead

2. TONING

Toners remove all traces of dirt, make-up or cleanser that remain after cleansing.

Immediately after cleansing apply toner to the forehead and cheeks on a pad of corron wool
Apply the toner to the crevices around the nose.
Apply the toner to the crevices around the chin.

3. MOISTURIZING

Without moisture, the skin will not remain smooth and supple. The face is exposed to the drying effect of the weather, so moisturisers -- which form a film over the skin -- contain and augment the natural moisture.

Using the tips ofthe fingers, dot moisturising cream lightly all over the face.

Press the fingers of both hands into the centre of the forehead and work the cream slowly outwards. Pat the cream gentlyaround the eyes.
Work the cream around the jawline, chin and mouth with the middle fingers of both hands.
Massage the cream over the throat with alternating hands, using upward strokes from collar-bone to chin.

I Aspire To Be One!

2010-01-25T19:01:00.000-08:00

Askmen.com rated the Angels As The Most Desirable Women In 2009*

Now That VICTORIA SECRET Boutique Is In Singapore,

Ladies, Get Ready To Shop!

VS Angels, Splendido*

Bring Down Your Ego...

2010-01-25T18:40:00.001-08:00

We used to go together
Lookin after each other
I thought that you were better,
Look at you

You used to be so layed back
You always kept it so cool
I loved you cos of all that, that’s the truth

I don’t think you know where your headin
Cos I was always there to help you break the fall

And now you wanna pretend that you a superstar,
And now you wanna stupend whats takin you this far
Don’t tell me that your done as far as we go,
you need to have a sit down with your ego

When everyone’s gone and you all by yourself,
You know that you gonna come to me for help
Don’t tell me that its time to go insono
you need to knock some sense into your ego

You act like you on fire
Livin your delusion
You just need you to take you higher
Off you go

You can make the call
In your bed and
I will not be there to help you break the fall

And now you wanna pretend that you a superstar,
And now you wanna stupend whats takin you this far
Don’t tell me that your done as far as we go,
you need to have a sit down with your ego

When everyone’s gone and you all by yourself,
You know that you gonna come to me for help
Don’t tell me that its time to go insono
you need to knock some sense into your ego

And when it’s time for you to come back down to
where you started but we parted
I think you find it in it’s very hard to face
Reality is just simple babe

And now you wanna pretend that you a superstar,
And now you wanna stupend whats takin you this far
Don’t tell me that your done as far as we go,
you need to have a sit down with your ego

When everyone’s gone and you all by yourself
You know that you gonna come to me for help
Don’t tell me that its time to go insono
you need to knock some sense into your ego

Liars Should Be MURDERED!

2010-01-23T08:34:00.000-08:00

One after another,

All you know is your sarcasm and crude words!

Enough!

I have had enough! Finally, everything Is revealed!

Yes, I was honest about Jack!

I WAS HONEST!

Look at you, doing things behind my back!

And now kiss and tell?

Why are you such a moron?

Why hurt others this way?

What do you gain?

I'm standing tall and strong thanks to my loved ones!

I don't need you!

You're nothing!

Your actions upset me!

I don't go writing about another man!

Your accusations caused me SO MUCH PAIN AND AGONY!

You've known me for three years,

All I needed most was utmost care and concern!

Look at what you've made me become?

Tolerance is what you have for us, never acceptance~

You said I had many flaws,

You treat me like a KID!

I have had enough of you!

ENOUGH*

Go ahead to all those you talk about,

Especially your life stories since Mine are just imaginary!

If I am fake, I'm more than happy to be as I am~

I've made it in life in many ways and still am achieving more~

Not because I am greedy, but because I wish to look back and be proud of what I have become!

In fact, this fantasy life I am living will bring me somewhere someday!

I am certain of that!

And if you wish to find someone that can suit you,

As being a simple plain jane who philanders around,

By all means, I am more than glad you do so!

As for me, I am happy being myself and this is what I am*

Others don't just love me for my outer beauty,

They truly appreciate me by who I am inside,

Like I've mentioned before, looks doesn't bring you anywhere!

In many ways, I've tried to impress you,

But it saddens me that I feel as though I wasn't good enough for you!

And I'm tired of pleasing you, Definitely tired of being sorry*

I am trying to pick up the pieces back together and start a fresh!

Discriminate others and you'll end up just like them!

Before criticizing others, look at yourself in the mirror,

You aren't so perfect,

AFTER ALL ;D

Sadness Fill My Eyes*

2010-01-19T23:11:00.000-08:00

Sick To My Stomach Again!

I feel so hopeless and restless!

Kept Going In And out of the toilet, My goodness~

Am I having stomach problems?

I'm losing weight abruptly!

And I constantly have stomach cramps if I eat too much!

Sadly, I get to see my friends lead a happy life eating and all,

But if I eat too much, I'd end up having cramps,

And If I eat too little, I'll be hungry again!

The pain is unbearable, I swear!

The doctor gave me this medicine and I'm noneng2 already!

It causes Drowsiness!

And whats worse is that I was summoned for illegal parking!

B****Y H*LL

I already have so much things to think about and now this?

My God!

So frustrating!

And next week I have to hand in all my projects!

I need a break!

I need a vacation~

Thank God I'm going either rock climbing or A&W for lunch with Sam and his mates at JB!

By the end of the year, I plan to go to Batam or KL or Bangkok with cousins!

Time to start saving, wohoooooo~

XOXO

Pameran Pengantin 2010*

2010-01-18T18:30:00.000-08:00

Thank You Everyone For Coming, Much Appreciated!

Here Are Photos From Pameran At Sing Expo ;D

School And Beauty!

2010-01-14T19:13:00.000-08:00

I'm feeling the pressure now!

Exam's in 5weeks time!

Oh God, I Must work extra hard for this one!

Moving on,

I Received A Shoe as a gift from a friend,

The thing is, it's super tight and I can't walk

I am 1.7m tall, and my feet is sized 9!

Yes, size 9!

And the funny thing is, I still wore the shoe,

But, I walked like a drunkard!

Omg, it was so hilarious!

I Swear!

And Guess what, Buruma and I exchanged shoes!!

I laughed hysterically!

So, We practically go around the school with exchanged shoes!

And I have pictures to prove it Ok?

Here you go... Buruma's Leg*

Here's My Leg*

Ok, I Can't Stop Giggling Now..

Moving On!

As you all know, I'm an addict when it comes to BEAUTY;

Be It Fashion, Make up, fake lashes, extensions, etc*

So, I want to take this opportunity to promote both my closest darla's business

One Is Ana, whom I call Beyonce, and the other is my beautician, Kak Aminah Begum

Girls, Listen Up Ok? ;D

My BFF, Ana, Is Selling Mac Products at a very affordable price!

She has a wide range of Mac products, from concealers, to foundation, to eye shadow, to compacts and alot more!!

While My Beautician, Kak Aminah Begum,

Is running a salon at Lucky Court!

I must say, she's an expert on threading! I never fail to visit her once a month for a session of threading!

Do you remember I recommended you girls for a session at Spa Alankara for oil treatment?

Hers is way better trust me!

Services provided by "THE BEAUTY ROOM" would be;

THREADING

Upper Lip - 3 SGD

Eye Brow - 5 SGD

Full Face - 15 SGD

WAXING

Under Arms - 10 SGD

Half Leg - 20 SGD

Full Arms - 25 SGD

Full Legs 30 SGD

Facial

Normal - 50 SGD / 80 SGD

Hot Oil Hair Treatment - 30 SGD

Interested, Please Get Back to Me ASAP

Enjoy Shopping And Stay Beautiful, Ladies.

XOXO ♥

Fantastic Sunday!

2010-01-10T01:17:00.000-08:00

Met my dad and sis just now!

Emotional Roller Coaster ride for me!

I love you both so so much!

Esp the one who gives birth to me!

I will never forget my family!

To me, you're still my all!

After getting gifts yesterday,

I received a helmet today and some pretty outfits!

In pink and black!

Thanks Daddy And Didi!

I missed hanging out with my family!

Eventhough we are apart, I always keep you close to my heart!

No matter where I may be,

I will carry you in my thoughts, I Promise!

Kissed my nephew on his forehead,

Nain, You'll always be my no 1!

Forever blessed, And forever Grateful,

Loving you till my very last breath, my family, my all!

Moving on,

Going out with Sam and aunt to catch

"Meet the Morgans"

At Ehub in the evening later,

Since it's so near to my house,

So might as well!

Congrats Sam, on wining soccer match today!

Sorry I couldn't be there,

Also, for the escort!

Sorry love!

Glad you had fun!

See You soon sugar!

XOXO~

Superb Saturday!

2010-01-09T07:46:00.000-08:00

WOOOOOOT!

What A Saturday?

I enjoyed my day, especially with my aunt!

Woke up late today, at about noon!

And the moment I opened my eyes, my aunt asked.

"Jan, you've got plans today?"

I replied "Nope, Sam's off for soccer so I guess we can go out"

So her good friend, Jamilah arrived today

And wanted to meet my aunt at Vivo..

So I agreed to accompany her!

I got up, made up my bed, headed straight to the bathroom,

And bathe!

After which, I got ready and we went off by bike!

Upon reaching our destination,

Aunty Jamilah called,

Saying her flight will be delayed!

Aunt was so upset, due to family problems, Aunt Jamilah said!

Sobs ;(

I cheered Aunt up, and asked her for lunch,

Since we're at harborfront!

We had lunch at Banquet!

Sumptuous meal + session of bitching = madness!

After which, we headed back to Vivo and what else?

SHOPPING!!!!!

70% Sale! My God! I Was Biting My hands ( literally )

Aunt brought me to MNG!

And bought me this gorgeous Sweater in Black!

Super Gorgeous!

Loved it to bits!

After that, we headed straight to MAC! ( As you all know, it's my fav make up store )

And got me a concealer!

Woooooottttttttttt! And I was smiling widely!

Few minutes later, her BFF Called ( Uncle Fawzy )

Well, he's my aunts' Bff, And they have been friends for quite sometime now,

And he just reached Spore, so he intend to meet my aunt!

Since his house is at Telok Belangah ( or however it's spelled ), I send my aunt there!

Chilled at his place and again Bitching session!

So much fun!

He told me he's flying to the States on the 14th..

And asked "Auby, do you want anything"

Knowing me, the only thing in my mind was Mac Makeup!

So I replied "Yes, please, Can I have a MAC Compact?"

He said "Sure, just pass your aunt the details and I'll get it for you!"

How sweet is that?

Omg! I'm soooo lucky!

The other day he already gave me a bicycle since he knew I love working out!

Today he offered to get me MAC Compact!

Life's Wonderful and I'm One Lucky Girl!

Wooot!

Moving On,

We went to Toa Payoh And I'm already so tired!

Didn't get the plastic shoes I wanted but got durians instead!

So we went home, and ate the durians and happily giggling talking crap!

But I decided to fly with Either SQ, Qatar or Emirates once I graduate,

Insyallah!

Wish me Luck Readers,

XOXO~

Moving, On For Real*

2010-01-07T18:56:00.000-08:00

Ola Il Mio Amore,

I’ve been busy with school and projects!

But lately, I’ve been meeting my loved ones,

And spending time with them makes me happy!

Nothing can cheer me up or make me any happier than being by their side

Enjoying every moment with them!

Met Raihannah Giselle Beats Last night with boyfie Jep!

It was so happening!

So much fun, really!

Talking about the ITE Days,

Where we both used to be so attached to each other!

She was body, I was soul!

She was my shadow,

Who follows me silently,

Everywhere I go, she was beside me,

Through thick and thin she has been with me,

And she still remains close to my heart till date!

Never have I imagined life without her!

Impossible I would say!

So we had dinner at Downtown East,

The malay food corner to be precise,

And as usual, I ordered Cheese Fries And Redbull.

Classic!

And we were laughing hysterically reminiscing about the

Good times we had back then in ITE Tamp!

There was this teacher who I adore, Mr Tan,

He always praise me unnecessarily!

Each time he post a question,

He’d go “Nurul, what’s the answer for this question; A. B, C, D?”

I replied confidently, “B!!!!”

And Everyone in the class knew it was a wrong answer!

So He went, “Nurul, I know you know the answer right?”

So me And Ana were laughing like mad!

I replied, “The answer is D, Mr. Tan! I was just joking!”

Then he went, “See, I know you know the answer, you’re just pretending right?”

I replied “Yes, How you know?” (when the truth is that I really don’t!)

So there is another teacher of mine, Mr Rahim*

He is another kind soul who praises me unnecessarily

He went, ”Nurul, Raihanah, who is our role model”

Ana replied. “Beyonce!!!”

Auby went “Ya, She looks like Beyonce, Mr Rahim! And she also Like Chris Brown”

Mr Rahim was mad!

He replied “NO! Our role model is prophet Nabi Muhammad SAW!”

Ana and I looked at each other and lauged!

He was right, we thought of the otherwise

Hilarious!

Seriously!

But now Poly life is soooo stressful!

Yet I’m standing tall,

Come what may, I’ll still stand tall!

For those who loathe me, I don’t give a damn because I only care about those who love me for who I am

XOXO

My Soul, My Love, My Everything!

2010-01-03T01:20:00.000-08:00

*Raihanah Gisselle Beats*

I missed you terribly!

Only God knows how much we truly love each other!

Each second that passes me by,

I think of her!

I love her, I need her, and I can never live without her!

Happiness filled my life eversince you became my better half, b!

I can never imagine us arguing about anything,

Because we never argued before!

Just misunderstandings that escalate to an argument!

And honestly, I've been suffering ever since we drifted apart!

I never imagined saying this to anyone else, but I hope you know that I really need

You in my life!

I am at my best when I'm with you,

And even at my worst, you cried with me!

Never have I felt such love from a friend before!

You move me, and touched me completely,

In many ways, And you never fail to remind me to be strong and to succeed in life!

You were my backbone, and I am your shadow that followed you silently!

I prayed everyday for you!

I want you to be happy, B!

I broke down the moment you called me!

I loved you so much, and this feeling I have for you will never fade!

Never!

You're irreplaceable, Baby!

XOXO

Waiting Is A Boring Game*

2010-01-03T00:59:00.001-08:00

The Descent Looking Sam

The One Who Always Make Me Smile

Laura And Sam, Since 2006*

A Few pictures taken with Sam!

It Seems that I'm Tired Of Waiting...

For once in my life, I realized so that there is more than meets the eye!

I'm going through depression, And I hate the feeling of being miserable!

It's true you have to learn to appreciate life and value those who loves you most!

I end up loving someone who never really loved me back*

And even after all these years, I waited, Patiently for him to be with me!

Why is love so painful, I questioned myself at times!

Life is unfair-So it seems!

But it life has to go on, I must say I find it rather annoying when things doesn't

go my way but what am I to do?

So Sam text me last night, asking if I was free to meet him and I agreed!

Even if it kills him to see me loving someone else,

He was extremely patient about it!

Looking at his eyes, I see nothing but pain!

Nothing But Misery and sorrows,

And whenever Sam is with me, he never fails to make me smile,

He has always been there for me, Even when I told him to go away, he never left!

He told me, Even if it takes years, or months or days,

He'll wait!

And he hold on to his word!

We met up last night, he brought me Ben And Jerry's Ice Cream!

My personal favorite,

Chocolate Fudge Brownie!

And brought me to the park to ease my mind!

Sam told me, "I'd do anything for you"

And I smiled! Even though deep down inside, I've hurt him so much!

Even during New Year And Mad Jack With The cousins,

Sam was there!

Everyone in my family loves Sam!

Even Ina, my Sister, loves him too!

Obviously, since they're best of friends!

So, I am hoping for the best this time,

I know everything about his past, and I forgive him..

All I care about is the everlasting love he has for me*

XOXO

MAD JACK ON NEW YEARS'

2010-01-02T03:21:00.000-08:00

Aunt Aidah, Liana Adex And Adil Akmal*

Auby Laura, Liyana And Sam*

On 01/01/2010

Superb!

Our Order For The Day*

Chocx Are My Drugs!

COUNTDOWN 2010*

2010-01-02T03:05:00.000-08:00

Buruma And Auby! Our First Countdown Together

The Aftermath - Marina Bay Baby!

Our Very First Destination - Downtown East*

With Baby Cousin, XOXO

Let's Party! Iddy Kiddy And AubyTiestoAdams*

Venue: Downtown East, White Sands Mac, Marina Bay

Time 1030 Pm-3 Am

People Who Attented Party: Sam, Auby, Iddy, Buruma*

Sick To My Stomach*

2009-12-30T03:37:00.000-08:00

I'm Feeling sick to my stomach today!

I don't have enough rest, And am having nightmares now and then!

Been dreaming in the day too!

I'm having ample of rest,

Trying not to think too much though!

Cousin Ayu Came in the afternoon and told me to have lunch~

She said I Looked different wearing specs!

Quote, "Jan, this is the other side of you, you looked different"

I replied "Models do get sick you know, I can't doll up and all meeting the doctor,

and gave her a smile"

I felt so frail, and lethargic!

Buruma came to the rescue, as usual!

At about 3 we headed to the polyclinic!

Buruma lectured me as usual, about eating healthily and all!

Quote, "Jannuma, stay focused, be strong, eat on time! You looked skinny!"

I replied "Yes, buruma I will!"

So he bought me Tuna and Sardines while I was busy searching for my Redbull!

A Day without Redbull and Chocx Is like a day In Hell For me!

Literally*

As I Depend Too Much On Redbull For Energy And Chocx To Make me Smile!

Oh yes, I'm On Sliming Pills, So Not To Worry!

So then After everything is settled,

Another Cousin of mine Asked, "Kak Nurul, Zirca Tomorrow?"

I Replied, "Adek, I'm Sick! I'll end up sleeping At Zirca! Tipsy On Medication Not On Alcohol"

And He Laughed Hysterically~

And To All My Friends Who Text Me And Those Who Wished Me In Fb For A Speedy Recovery,

Thanks A Billion For Being Super Caring!

Sincere Apologies, I May Not Reply You Now,

But I Will Definitely Reply You Soon!

XOXO Readers*

Si prega di voler soggiorno*

2009-12-29T01:45:00.000-08:00

Sometimes I find myself sittin' back and reminiscing
Especially when I have to watch other people kissin'
And I remember when you started callin' me your miss's
All the play fightin', all the flirtatious disses
I'd tell you sad stories about my childhood
I don't why I trusted you but I knew that I could
We'd spend the whole weekend lying in our own dirt
I was just so happy in your boxers and your t-shirt

Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of you and me
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
I wonder if you have the same dreams too

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
"That the things are reminding me of you"
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
"Is this the end?"

Drinkin' tea in bed
Watching DVD's
When I discovered all your dirty grotty magazines
You take me out shopping and all we'd buy is trainers
As if we ever needed anything to entertain us
the first time that you introduced me to your friends
"and you could tell I was nervous, so you held my hand"
when I was feeling down, you made that face you do
"There's no one in the world that could replace you" (NO ONE)

[Chorus]
Dreams, Dreams
Of when we had just started things
Dreams of me and you
It seems, It seems
That I can't shake those memories
"I wonder if you feel the same way too"

The littlest things that take me there
I know it sounds lame but its so true
I know its not right, but it seems unfair
That the things reminding me of you
Sometimes I wish we could just pretend
Even if only for one weekend
So come on, Tell me
Is this the end?

Auby Still Loves You*
XOXO

Patience Is Virtue*

2009-12-28T21:07:00.000-08:00

Indulging in chocolates!

Phew, Chocolates Make me happy really!

Thank God for that!

Patience Is Virtue they say?

How far is this true?

Once I head home, I wish to jog!

Meeting hubs later, hopefully I can sleep well tonight!

Being in love is so complicated, and I really hope that things will turn out fine!

I just don't wish to think too much!

Enough*

Tweet all day and thank God I'm done With SD PROG!

Listening to metallica helps me calm myself down!

Like I said, it doesn't make me any stronger if I dwell about it!

Let it go, said the Angel,

And that is what I am going to do!

For once, I do not want to think too much about it!

I will never let anything come in my way!

It's all about me now!

Moving on,

New Year!

In two days!

Whopeeee!

Can't Wait to Party!

Really am looking forward to 2010*

Striving for perfection!

Nothing and I Mean NOTHING can come in my way!

xoxo

Boredom!

2009-12-26T21:26:00.000-08:00

FINALLY!

I Added A Tagboard! But I Still Prefer Classic Dark Though!

So Leave Me Your Thoughts On The Tagboard, Readers!

I Wish To Change My Blog Skin, And Make My Own!

Pfft!

Any Ideas How To Do That?

Well I Was Thinking Of Doing Victoria Secret Theme!

All The Sexy Angels! ;D

Moving On,

I Am Eating The Xmas Cake, And Honestly,

I Need To Start Exercising Soon!

I'm Still In The Holiday Mode Even Though School Is Starting Tomorrow!

Will Be Going Out Later To Grab My Stationeries!

Another Stressful Term,

But When I Look At The Bright Side,

I Get To Meet My Besties Once Again!

Whopee!

Can't Wait!

Another Stressful Term,

Hectic Schedule But I'll Manage My Time Well!

Insyallah!

Two More Months To My Press Conference And Modeling Assignment!

Will Update When Event Is Nearing!

Moving On,

New Year Is Nearing!

I Want To Get A Coach Wristlet!

By CNY! Period!

I Want To Achieve Success!

And I Want To Achieve Happiness!

Nothing Can Take That Away From Me!

Insyallah Amin!

2010, Here I Come!

XOXO Readers-AubyLauraAdams*

Night With My Girls*

2009-12-26T09:52:00.000-08:00

One Word;

Excellente*

Enjoyed EVERY second that passed me by!

Xmas Was Superb for me!

Me And My girls partied like a rockstar!

We Partied Hard!

Everyone looked gorgeous On Xmas Day!

Giggled and laughed till wee hours in the morning!

No One was drunk Though!

Not to worry we were in one piece the very next morning!

Seriously we munched on snacks and indulged in Xmas Tree Chocolate Cake!

Xmas was a blast for me!

Enjoyed Every moment!

Aunt, Thank You For Spoiling Me With Wonderful Gifts!

Colleagues, Thanks For The Cupcakes And Candies ( I Feel Like a 12year Old Again )

And Lastly,

Thanks To My Girls For The Wonderful Xmas Party!

Countdown Next, Any Suggestions Anyone?

;D

I Will Add A Tagboard Soon, Pretty Soon!

Lastly, A Piece Of Advise From Qaiyum

DO NOT BATHE LATE AT NIGHT!

NOT ADVISABLE*

Goodnight Earth!

XOXO Readers!

Merry Xmas!

2009-12-24T05:15:00.000-08:00

Ola!

How is your Xmas preparations coming along?

Doing last minute shopping or partying hard I bet?

I'm enjoying myself;

Indulging in chocx!

Went To "THE COCOA TREES"

And Got Myself Fruit And Nut Cadbury Chocolates!

The moment I stepped into the shop,

I lirerally bite my nails*

My jaw dropped!

Chocolates everywhere! I wish I Could Have All Of Them Send to my home!

As A Xmas Gift!

I always dreamt of having my own CHOCOLATE FACTORY!

I'm Delusional I Know!

Well, Who Cares? I'm Happy Being The Way I Am!

So Santa, Grant My Wish For Xmas This Year!

Chocolate Factory Please?

Moving On..

Headed To Pedro After That,

Feisal got himself Pedro Shoes!

Classic And Classy!

Perfect In Brown, LV Design!

Superb!

He Loved It Too,

So After Which, We Had Lunch Ar HarbourFront!

PASTAMANIA! All Time Favourite!

My Favourite Hangout I Would Say!

Right Edy? Oh Ya, I Need To Meet Bestie Soon!

Lots To Bitch About! ;D

Enjoy Your Day Wherever You Are, Readers!

XOXO~

Beyond Description!

2009-12-21T19:48:00.000-08:00

Had a blast with the cousins last night!

There were eleven of us, including myself and we headed to Snow City

And also Science Centre for our outing!

It was enthralling!

We were so enthu about going Snow City till me and Adil (Sugarpulp)

Couldn't sleep till four am in the morning!

So we just stared into blank space and forced ourselves to sleep!

The moment we gathered to take the train,

Everyone was looking at us!

Thinking whether it's a school trip or just a casual outing!

As usual, Moi, Fee and Iddy sat together and listened to music!

Sad thing is I misplaced my MP3 and my aunt confiscated the Ipod

So had no other choice but to listen to my cousin's music

But not bad though, the boy has good taste in music!

And fashion too*

Moving on..

Upon arrival, we took pictures~

Camwhore Again And Again!

We are vain, no doubt about that!

It runs int the blood*

We headed straight to the S.C.

And the moment we went in,

My Goodness! We were all freezing!

Literally!

I think the one in Korea is better,

As we didn't had a chance to ski!

Sobs ;(

Moving On..

We went to Macdonalds For Lunch!

Being fussy, as you all know,

I went up to the counter, And requested alot of things!

I told them,

"I have a huge order, 4 MacSpicy Meal, 2 Mc Wings, 3 Double Cheeseburger Meal, One

McChiken Meal and One Happy Meal"

And My Order Was Mcspicy Meal, No Lettuce, Add Mayo And Drinks Change To Iced Milo

If Not, Double Cheese Meal, No Onions, No tomato sauce, No pickles, Just Plain With

Cheese And Iced Milo For the Drinks!

Curry Sauce and Extra Chilli sauce is a must!

After lunch, we headed to Science Centre,

And headed straight to Sugarpulp's House for dinner!

Nasi Goreng Was Superb*

We Called It A Day After That!

Amazing Day With The Cousins!

Love You All

xOxO*

Life

2009-12-19T21:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday was fun I guess

We ate non-stop!

We had beef steak, chicken franks, beacon, beef franks, and wedges!

As usual, I had Oreo milkshake!

Classic*

And we celebrated Liyana's Ending Days of Being A Single Woman!

Apparently she's getting married next week

So we threw her a small "party"

And she was all smiles last night!

We also had the "APPLE SHEESHA" or however it's spelled

And surprisingly my aunt really knows how to smoke sheesha!

She uploaded the pictures in Fb Hope it's not too blur or dark though

Since she's using her phone*

All the best to Liyana; May your marriage last long ;D

Venue: Al Majlis

Time: 7.30 Till Midnight

Those Who Attended the Party: Colleagues

Moving On,

Today, I'm attending a cousins' wedding!

I loathe weddings seriously!

Reason being, It makes me feel so lonely!

The feeling itself is indescribable

I just wonder, will men ever treat us right?

I have this fear of being in a r'ship!

And I am revengeful indeed!

I vowed to myself after you left,

I'd be a succesful woman!

I Still hold on to my words!

And will never let anyone take that awau from me!

And Once I succeed in my life,

I'll achieve more,

I feel satisfaction in that way!

And people, please stop asking about my personal life

Thank you*

Let Your Hair Down!

2009-12-19T02:24:00.000-08:00

Heading to a party with the aunt!

I'm bright in yellow, just the way Jack liked it!

All Smiles now!

Well my day went well!

Slept very late last night laughing and giggling with the cousins!

Love you guys alot!

I even did facial for them actually!

And they loved it!

Pampering session for the loved ones!

As of next week, I'll be busy with mom's wedding and all

Oh ya guys, I heard Charcoal facial wash is superb!

You should give it a try ok?

Moving on, I'm heading to Arab St soon!

Ladies Night out as one of my aunts' colleage is getting married!

Marriage Is something I would rather say...

Impossible for me as I'm happy being single!

Well everyone is entitled to their own opinion

So here's mine*

Perhaps I'm fussy or just scared,

Or maybe both?

Hopefully, I marry the right man!

Who can endure with my character and imperfections!

I'm a mess!

So yea!

Going to let my hair down sooon,

Take Care Guys,

xOxO!

Merry Xmas!

2009-12-16T04:52:00.000-08:00

Free Twitter Backgrounds

Merry Xmas in adv!

I already received my gifts Whoopee!

Excited Aren't I?

Well I received plenty of gifts today!

Outfitter Girls Shirt, Body Shop Perfume (And I Really Love this one) and Body Butter

Scrub And Lastly Urban Slippers*

I Dined At Fish And Co!

Finally, I get to eat my fish salmon!

And the service was good!

Two thumbs Up!

Well I am currently working at NTUC Income since I'm on hols,

Might As Well work right?

At least I earn!

Now I understand why people tend to put on weight working in an office environment!

Apparently, everyone, including myself, were munching on biscuits and drinking hot milo

like nobodys' business!

We were literally dipping our plain biscuits in hot milo!

Happily eating whilst doing our work!

Have you watched "Sesame Street" Before?

Well All of us looked like Cookie Monster!

Lolx!

I Looked left and right and everyone's jaw was moving!

And my colleagues are happening!

Friendly and Funny!

Made Me Feel so comfortable at work!

Once my two weeks of "probation" are over,

I will start to work from home!

Am looking forward to that!

Next Week, photoshoot with Reese(Saint)!

T-shirt Online!

That's His Business Now*

Will Give My All For This One!

Wish You The Best Of Luck Saint!

And To You Know Who You Are, Answer My Calls Will You?

Take Care Readers xOxO*

Updated*

2009-12-13T19:22:00.000-08:00

Weather – Madness!

I Was In Shocking Pink, Black And Gold!

Thank God Everything Went Well!

I Arrived Approximately Around 2pm!

Location: Sentosa, Pahlawan Beach;

Models: Moi, Sisqa, Kiz And Sexay Momma, Anggun*

Dresscode: Sexy

Everyone Looked Great!

Still In The Zouk-Out Mode Except For Myself!

But Overall, I’m Contented With My Shots!

Will Upload It In Facebook Soon!

Sincere Thanks To Photographer, And I Can’t Wait To Get The Pictures!

Pretty Much Excited Since It’s My First Time Modeling For Cars!

It’s Been Quite Sometime I Last Uploaded My Blog, Been Super Busy!

My Schedule Is So Hectic!

Met Trainer The Other Day!

She Pushed Me, And I Love It!

No Doubt It Was Tiring,

My Pain And Anger, All Expressed In My Running Session With Her!

I Am Able To Control My Emotions And Feelings When I Run!

I’m Happy The Way I Am Now, All Thanks To My Loved Ones And My Friends!

They Make My Day, They Make Me Smile!

Syukran! I Love You!

Speaking Of Which,

Me. Buruma And Kalai Went Out To Bugis!

To Celebrate Buruma’s Bday!

Glad Everyone Had Fun!

Must Do This Often!

XOxO~

My Precious BFFS!

2009-11-23T18:12:00.000-08:00

Confidence Quotes

I'm So excited to go out with Buruma this Saturday!

He wants to go shopping!

We went threading together too!

Spend my weekends with him doing projects and all!

Yes, I wish to clarify everyone's doubts!

I have quite a number of BFFS,

I know;

But one thing's for sure,

I have my boundaries with them!

Idc what you want to say about me!

I love my BFFS unconditionally!

And they mean the world to me!

FYI, I do not choose my friends by the way they look or dress,

Or even to the way they speak!

I chose them for their sincere heart, kind soul and their purest love!

They love me beyond my flaws and all,

Beyond anything that I've achieved so far in life!

They're my strength, and my weakness,

And they've never betrayed me!

My BFFS are gems; Pure and Rare!

No beings on the face on the earth can stop me from loving them!

For they are my life, my all, my everything!

I've been hearing rumors about this,

And I must say some are shocking!

Nevertheless, I always hold on to my principles and morals!

I believe that reputation is what others merely think you are;

While CHARACTER is what you truly are, inside!

My friends are my family,

And my family are my Pillars Of Faith,

Nothing can come between my and my loved ones, Period*

xOxO~

Random!

2009-11-21T19:11:00.000-08:00

Confidence Quotes

So The Boys were out playing poker;

And I was busy cleaning the house!

Iddy, Saiful And Adi were playing 21, Bluff, And "ti-tee" or however it is spelled And I heard

Them Giggling and Laughing Hysterically!

My Goodness! And In My heart, I Was Saying "Boys, Will Be Boys!"

Moving On...

I Heard About Whatever things that she posted on her wall saying things about being innocent

And all;

And the funny thing is that, My friends, who mean the world to me,

Told me about it!

I just had to stay at home and receive phone calls!

They're always there for me, and thank you for that!

I've to learn to control my emotions and temper!

Honestly, It's really bad and I've got to do something about it for sure!

And I was thinking of creating an account in Twitter;

Am still considering though!

Hopefully, It Doesn't Bring any controversial issues!

Moving On,

I Fetched my aunt as usual,

After which, we headed to Sempang Bedok (SPIZE) And had dinner there!

I Wanted to Have Burger For Dinner But My Aunt Insisted On Me Having Chix Rice Instead!

She Knows I'm Famished 24/7 So She Was Too Lazy To Wake Up In The Middle Of The Night!

Hence, she told me to eat something heavy!

I Ate "Nasi Goreng Ayam Tiga Rasa" While My Aunt Ate "Mee HorFun Black Pepper Beef"

And Adi Ate "Nasi Goreng Kampung!"

I'm Being Specific, I Know! Only Because The Food's Delicious!

Seriously!

I am VERY Particular when it comes to food, So You have to trust me with this!

Chicken Rice Is My Fav food and everyone knows that ;)

xOxO~

Leading Ladies!

2009-11-21T19:06:00.000-08:00

The AfterMath-Cosmoprof Photoshoot!

Am Loving The Make Up!

My Rihanna Look-A-Like Model

Diyan's Prom Night-And I Was Her Make Up Artist*

Pfft!

2009-11-20T18:27:00.000-08:00

Had An Amazing Time Yesterday!

I Started Off With School, Adi Fetched Me And Send Me For My Shooting

After Which I Rushed To Cosmoprof;

At Selegie Road!

Jessica Had A Main Exam On Night Make Up And Honestly I Loved It!

I Am seriously planning on learning bridal make up, perhaps with Fatimah Mohsin or my

Own bridal company! It's my passion to beautify women!

And myself, obviously!

;)

Moving On..

Me, my cousin, and Adi had our dinner at Beach Road!

We were actually planning to eat "Soup Tulang"

And Adi was always emphasizing on the sentence, "It runs in the blood!"

Grrr! He's always teasing me!

We had an amazing trip back home,

Since it was raining and we took public transport!

Oh ya,

Not to mention, the times Adi disturbed people made us laughed hysterically!

Iddy and I giggled the moment we stepped into the bus!

Adi, Adi, I said!

Anyways, I Received a phone call from Szan and mentioned he wanted to ask me a favor

To host for B8's event!

I know of a person who can do hosting better than i do

So I'll recommend him to Szan!

Akk the best for the event ;)

Goood day Readers, xOxO~

Hectic!

2009-11-18T19:00:00.000-08:00

My schedule for this week is still hectic!

I’m focusing solely on school and this

Saturday I’m going to re-shoot for

“Forbidden Love!”

Am packed with quizzes and also projects!

Dear God, please give me the strength!

Am also looking for a job to sustain myself!

There are so much things in my mind!

One of which Is studies, the other is my career!

Even though I can manage my time well,

At times I feel that I have no time for myself!

Maybe because I’m juggling both career and

School, and not forgetting my personal life!

Oh yes, I just talked to Ina last night!

She wants to try out for an audition on the 24th

Am still considering actually!

I wish to accompany her!

And I miss her so so much!

Seriously!

I miss my girls too!

And can’t wait to meet them soon!

Sophie, Naz, Reen, Ina, Dee, and Not Forgetting!

Miss Chupa Chups, Ana Babylove!

Gosh! I miss you girls so so much!

I assure you, I will meet you girls sometime

soon!

I promise!

We used to talk about anything and everything!

We went through good times and bad and not

Forgetting..

The best years In my life are the times spend

With you girls!

I saw your Halloween pictures!

Hotness I must say!

Wish I could upload that in my blog actually!

Heeh!

And yea, I make-up for Dyan a few days back!

Goodness, She looked Drop-Dead-Gorgeous!

She was an exact replica of Rihanna!

She jumped in joy the moment she saw herself

in the mirror! She told me,

“KAKAK NURUL, THE MAKE-UP IS AWESOME!”

“I’m loving myself, seriously”

I smiled all day feeling satisfied I made a girl

feel beautiful!

I’ve always wanted women to feel that about

Themselves!

Especially when you are married, you can’t

Afford to slack!

Unless your hubby is the sort who loves you beyond your flaws and all!

Men should appreciate their spouse and love them unconditionally;

Reason being, women worked so hard and doll up nicely for you! A compliment wont kill!
Just by saying, “Honey you look gorgeous today”

You already made her smile all day!

Get her a rose out of the blue or ask her on a date! Do something random!

That might help you spice up your marriage!

Hope this few tips might help!

;)

All the best!

Goodie Luck!

XOxO~

Life Has To Go On ;)

2009-11-16T07:34:00.000-08:00

I am feeling frail!

Dear God save me from myself!

Please don't let me lose my concentration on my career and school!

Please God!

I beg Of you!

Why does it come across my mind whenever I think about the past?

Why do I feel traumatized?

Why do I keep questioning myself?

Why this why that?

My Life evolves around the ones I care and love most!

My life is about my career, family, cousins, and BFFS!

And not forgetting FB And My blog!

Whenever I ride my bike, I keep asking myself why*

Sparky brings me to places that I wish to go;

Wherever that may be!

I just need a peace of mind!

I need to grab hold of myself!

Love me or hate me, either ways you will still talk about me*

Smiling Widely*

2009-11-14T06:02:00.000-08:00

My Photoshoot Was A Sucess!

I Had A Blast!

Location: Paradiz Ctr, Selegie Road, Time: 12 nn, Make Up Artiste: Kak Yusnita

Sincere Thanks To Kak Yusnita (Jessica) For The Gorgeous Make Up!

I Looked Like A Foreign Lady!

Especially With The Head Accessories And Fabulous Black-And-White Gown!

The Photographer Went "Pls Don't Smile, Give Me A Fierce Look"

I Was Shocked! And Kak Yusnita Was Smiling And All!

I'm Glad She Loved The Shots!

Syukur Alhamdulillah, She Seemed Excited!

I Pray The BEST For Her!

Insyallah, She'll Score!

I Even Received A Gift From Her! Which Was One Of My Wishlist This Yr!

One Of Which Is BEBE's Sweater!

I'd Be The Happiest Woman Alive If I Were To Receive That From SANTA!

I'm In My Own World, I Know ;)

Moving oN,

Adi Send Me To And Fro From The Location!

And I Accompanied Him For His Soccer Match*

Crystal Utd Is The Name Of Their Team, And I'm Officially An Arden Fan!

Next Time I Turn Up, Me And My Cousins, Regardless Of Gender,

Will Be Your Cheerleaders!

Wearing Short Skirts And Pom-Poms Cheering For You Ok?

GO CRYSTALS!

Lolx!

Moving On, I'm Currently Memorizing My Script For Tomorrow~

Last Shooting At East Coast Park!

Hopefully I'll Do Fine, Insyallah!

Amin!

Moving On,

Starting From Next Week, I'll Be Training With Yana At Meridian Jc~

All Thanks To Her, I'll Get My Shape And Abs Back!

See You On Friday Baby!

I'm Turning In, So Lethargic And Exhausted!

Will Be Watching Mr And Mrs Smith Before That!

Sweet Dreams Guys ;)

xOxO~

Famished!

2009-11-13T02:57:00.000-08:00

Confidence Quotes

I'm Having my filming for 'FORBIDDEN LOVE'

And I'm Soooo Famished!

I Think Its The Weather Or I'm Just Too Hungry~

Thank Goodness, My Darling Cousin Cooked Mee Goreng With Some Vege!

It's Finger-Licking-Good!

Anywayas,

Director, Farah, Liked The Shot!

Where I Overdose Of Drugs!

Hehe ;)

I Am Watching VS 2009 Fashion Show And I Kept Watching Megan's Esquire Video Clip!

She's Gorgeous And Hot!

Inspirational indeed!

Moving On, Tomorrow's Photoshoot~

Allah, Please Give Me The Strength To Perform Well!

Back To Shooting On Set~

xOxO~

Thank You ;)

2009-11-12T21:45:00.000-08:00

MySpace Layouts

So Here's A Quote From Me To The Souls Who Dislike me,

Shall Not Elaborate any further!

Anyways, I had a blast going out with Kalai Baby just now and am back home to start

shooting for Farah's love movie!

"Ryan", Who is acting as my partner, will have to be emotional and cry,

Will be looking forward to that scene!

Me, on the other hand, will be convincing viewers that I am a cocky arrogant lady turned softie!

Ryan changed me completely!

But fate never brought us together as I died of drug overdose!

Why Do all good things come to an end?

That was the first thing that came into my mind the moment I read the script ;)

I enjoy acting and hopefully I will get to act as a goodie-two-shoes girl or something

which is positive!

Moving on, tomorrow is my photoshoot!

Am looking forward to that actually!

Have to report by Nine so I hope my shoot finish early today!

Need ample of rest!

Starting from next week, I'll start to workout again!

I just need two months and I'll get my abs back!

Trainer, meet me up soon yea?

Will Also be collecting my bath confetti thanks to 02 Skin Care!

Much Appreciated!

Alrighty, I gtg!

But Before That,

I Wish To Share A Few Beauty Tips With You*

1. Try Pearlie White Toothpaste! It Gives You A Perfect Smile All Day!

2. Invest On Cocoa Butter And Scrub Your Skin Once A Week To Get The Glowing

Complexion You've Always Wanted!

3. Lastly, Never Sleep With Make Up! Cleanse, Tone, Moisturize! ;)

xOxO~

Overall, Superb!

2009-11-11T06:37:00.000-08:00

Thank You So Much for your comments and feedbacks, Much appreciated!

Will strive to be better in the future!

Hopefully, The Video Clip Will Be Lunched In Mid December, Insyallah!

A Box Of Tissues Might Come In Handy ;)

Some Scenes Are Really Sad, I Brought My Personal Life Into The Set to Make Me Cry!

It Worked!

I Really Put Myself In A Cervical Cancer Patients’ Shoes And I Must Say I Am Blessed, Indeed, With Everything Allah Has Given Me ;)

Syukur Alhamdulillah Pada Yang Esa~

Never Take Things For Granted-Quote Of The Day*

Moving On,

I had a blast in school, today!

During Public Speaking, I Talked A lot, Practically About Introduction, Body, And Conclusion Of Speech!

Now I Know The Meaning to Shingz and Boomz!

Moving On..

I Went To Eunos For My fitting for this saturday's photoshoot!

I’m Wearing This Gorgeous White And Black Dress, And Am Hoping My Make Up Artist Can Score Well For This One!

Insyallah, She’ll Do Fine!

Before that, I've filming with Farah And Her Mates For A LOVE MOVIE! Sadly, For This, I Died Too, Eventually Due To Overdose Of Drugs!

Sad Story, Insyallah Will Share With You The Movie Once Its Out Ok?

That’s About It For Now, Sweet Dreams Readers!

Xoxo~

Speechless~

2009-11-10T07:16:00.000-08:00

I am happy, beyond words! ;)

Finally, Abang azmi send me the link for my video clip's sneak preview!

Whopee!

Honestly, I am satisfied with the outcome!

Insyallah I will try to improvise my acting in the longrun!

Ya Allah, Please give me the strength and endurance to move on with life!

And I Pray I wont forget my roots, amin! ;)

Here's the link for the videoclip;

http://vimeo.com/7502510

Do give me your feedback via Fb ok?

Thanks a Billion Guys ;)

Moving on, Edy argued with me over the "open rship" issue!

I intentionally did so for personal reasons,

Its between me and ana*

I can't argue with him! He's the other half*

He is like a brother of my own, a twin of mine I would say!

I know he cares and love me, and I didn't mean to hurt him in any way!

He has been my BFF since I was 13, and he knows me inside out!

My family knows we're really close and never ever have they forbid me from meeting him!

Even my mom loves Edy like her own!

How can I live without Edy?

He has never hurt me before, and I never wish to lose him!

Forgive me Edy, For I am only human*

Moving on, Its bb's bday!

Angel, you're officially a matured adult!

All Smiles Baby!

Me And Buruma Got you LA SENZA!

Just the gift you wanted for Xmas right?

Hunney, I hope you like this one!

Well Me and Buruma went Wisma Atria just now!

Had loads of fun!

He accompanied me to get my make up brushes!

Oh yes, speaking of which!

Ladies, Before you splurge your money on M.A.C brush or even BODY SHOP,

I'd Rather You Purchase The Eco Friendly Brush At Watsons, Which Only Costs You SGD7!

Save the Earth! ;)

The Brushes That Are Used in the make-up tutorial that I shared in FB are exactly the

ones I purchased at Watsons ;)

Revert back to me again, via FB if you are interested ok?

I'm heading of to bed now, sweet dreams readers!

xoxo~

Wanita-Video Clip With B8*

2009-11-07T09:57:00.000-08:00

I just reached home from the shooting with B8!

I am exhausted yet i'm smiling!

It was WORTH IT!

Worth My Time and effort!

It Was Enthralling I must say!

Ma aunt accompanied me throughout the shooting!

I reached location at 9, started shooting for first scene-Clinic*

Where my "hubby" played by Abang Azmi, brought me straight to the clinic!

Where he was told that I was suffering at the last stage of cervical cancer, "Barah Rahim!"

And second scene- B8 With the Anugerah Ladies!

They Looked like dolls! Enchanting and mesmerizing!

And Not forgetting friendly!

So while they were busy shooting, I was busy talking to the rest of the cast!

And ended up sleeping because I was super exhausted!

The day before I had filming with Farah at Ite AMK*

So That explains why I was super lethargic during the set!

After lunch, we took pictures-Me, my hubby and my daughter-Sakinah,

to make it look more convincing that we are actually a family!

My make up, on the other hand, is light and dramatic!

Light-Natural make up since it involves alot of "home scenes"

And dramatic pale make up-Because I was dying of Cervical cancer!

So you can expect me to look really sick!

So moving on,

Next scene was at Abang Ahmad's House!

At first it was this happy scene with the family..

Then, it was the crying scene~

All I could think of was how the past haunts me,

How I was really heart-broken!

It moved me somehow, to the extend that I cried as though My husband died,

When the truth is that I died eventually!

Tragic Storyline But Meaningful!

After the crying scene was over, everyone complimented me!

Maybe I thought of my tragic love story, and I delivered!

The best part is, I have an offer to host and act, in either Channel 5 or Suria!

Gave my contact to several important people in this industry and Thank God

for I am blessed with everything he gave me!

Syukur Alhamdulillah!

Before I Wrap it up, I'll inform you more about the video clip ok?

Somewhere In Mid December, Insyallah!

Sincere Thanks To Jun Junalis, B8, Producers, Camera Crew And

Everyone Involved, Thank You!

Lastly, ladies, beware of this illness! Go for a check up Today!

xoxo~

Auby Bears It All*

2009-11-04T00:39:00.000-08:00

School Was A Blast!

2009-11-03T19:34:00.000-08:00

Had fun during programming class!

Yugi, Me And my mates really focused and finished our codes!

I must say I look forward to school everyday!

My frens are helping me to recover from the heart-ache*

I feel so blessed and happy!

My lecturer is so laid-back that he even allowed us to listen to our IPOD's during lab!

And on top of that, he encouraged us to perform well and score Straight As for our subjects!

My friends never talked about my past or even my personal life because they knew I went through so much!

I've been abused, and I am scarred!

Why Do all good things come to an end?

What happened to Trust and Loyalty?

Why do women have to suffer?

Why are women always the one to be blamed?

What ever happened to fairness?

Why are there divorce?

Why is there even a word "Infedality" In the marriage dictionary?

I questioned myself, Why are humans not satisfied with what they have or own?

Why, Why, Why???

In many ways I realised I've become weak the moment I fell in love!

Is it a Test From God?

If it is, then I'll take things slowly,

One Step at a time!

My girls are cheering me up as well!

It's not the end of the world, they say! I deserve happiness!

For I have changed in many ways!

All thanks to you girls, I have finally found happiness!

And they support me in taking up make-up courses!

I wish to learn more, this is what I'm passionate about most, so I guess I should give it a try!

Anyways, this saturday...

I'll be appearing in B8's Video-clip!

I am excited and nervous about it!

Thank You, Jun Junalis, for the offer!

Wish me luck ok?

Before I Wrap It up;

Tips for Beauty*

1) Try drinking watermelon juice everyday! At least once a day, if you do not like to drink iced-water!

2) Try the new charcoal face wash at watsons! It eliminates pimples and blemishes*

3) Lastly, have at least 8hrs of sleep and drink lots and lots of mineral water!

For men, try not to invest on Biore! If you are wondering why you have pimples all over your

face, Biore is the cause of it!

Trust me on this, Invest on Vichy Facial wash SGD30*

Hope this helps you! I'll upload my pictures without make up pretty soon so hang in there!

Enjoy your day!

xoxo!

Trauma*

2009-11-02T18:22:00.000-08:00

Don't ask me about relationships or marriage!

Love is phobia!

My heart sank the moment someone talks to me about my past;

Or about love!

I feel so betrayed; As though someone pierced me straight thru the heart!

I Bled, profusely!

Thinking I could be happy but everything was a mistake!

Was it a fascade?

Or was it sympathy?

Words are just words!

Nothing will change my perception of r'ships*

I will still be the same*

Moving on..

This sat I'll be appearing in B8'S Videoclip!

I am so excited!

I swear!

Nervous also!

Will Upload about it the day after!

Am now In school doing two things at one time, lol ;)

Listening, absorbing, while typing ;)

I'm a multi-tasker!

xoxo

Life Is Full Of Happiness*

2009-11-01T05:00:00.000-08:00

It's Been quite sometime I didn't update my blog!

There's so much things to say!

I had a blast during the weekends~

We went over to Uncle Fauzie's Place ( The aunt's bestie )

He's place is so beautiful I swear I love staying there!

The very next morning, we went to Hortpark for a session of hiking!

It was enthralling indeed!

Especially in the morning!

Me, Uncle Fauzi and Bda went to Hortpark to get some fresh air and we walked from his home to the henderson waves!

Such a beautiful view!

After which, we had bread toast with maple syrup and milk for breakfast!

Wonderful!

Seriously!

We went home in the afternoon and I slept again till Caramel called me to meet him for a session of shopping!

We went to town to get my foundation at M.A.C!

They have the best coverage, girls!

You should give it a try!

Sidetrack* Back to my story..

Caramel ended up sleeping and I woke him up around 8pm and we headed straight to town*

After buying my lash applicator, foundation and also eye liner brush,

We headed to Spice and realised it was packed!

Sat night, what do you expect?

So we decided to have dinner at Macdonalds!

He forced me to eat, since he knew I was losing tons of weight!

I'm just preparing myself for the photo shoot on the 14th!

The mak andam already called me and discussed about how the event!

Honestly I'm excited and at the same time, nervous~

So next friday,sat and sunday I'll be busy helping Farah with the acting for her major project!

Insyallah everything will be Alright, Amin!

Will Upload the pictures in Fb! No Worries! ;)

Moving on,.

Today we went to Ubin and Again, I had a blast with the cousins!

The weather was nice, the food was great and we enjoyed ourselves and at the same time, we exercised!

What more can I ask for?

All Smiles, Auby!

After which, we head to Coffee Bean and I Must say..

Caramel Frap is still my all-time-fav!

Fell in love with it the moment I tasted it with Fee at bugis the other day!

So we talked about travelling and Am so excited about Bangkok!

I Need to Save Up!

Bungee Jumping' Here I Come!

Madness*

Before I Wrap it Up, I Wish to share some tips with you*

1) For those who intend to have flawless skin, INVEST in Clarins' Moisturizer and Toner!

2) Drink Evian Water; Go On an Evian diet for two months and you will see the difference!

3) Lastly, If You wish to have a gorgeous body, again, INVEST in Lustre Fat Burner*

All the Best~

XOXO

Thank God it's Friday~

2009-10-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

Exhausted, Completely!

Am resting on the bed waiting for time to pass me by yet its so slow~

Am also charging ma IPOD nano!

I am down with gastric flu and my stomach is still aching!

The doc mentioned something about healthy lifestyle and eating in moderation!

Honestly, if modeling isn't my passion, i would eat my heart out!

Have you guys ever watched Norbit before?

Yea, i wish to be like the wife!

She seemed happy!

Speaking of which, I've always admired plus-sized/voluptuous woman!

Esp Queen Latifah!

She is one Confident Woman!

She inspires me alot especially when I look down on myself!

She is a role model*

Kim Kardashian Is one Gorgeous, Accomplished, Well-Known, Celebrity, Whose Beauty Is Beyond Description~

A Fashionista Indeed!

And So Is Beyonce Knowles!

She's Beautiful, Sweet, Kind Hearted And Down-To-Earth!

I Believe That Women Should Stay Grounded*

Others Will Respect you If you stay humble~

Quote Of The Day: Be Grateful For What You Have, For Those Who Are Greedy Will End Up Regretting In The End~

xoxo Ladies~

Beauty*

2009-10-27T20:32:00.000-07:00

"For beautiful eyes, look for the good in others; for beautiful lips, speak only words of kindness; and for poise, walk with the knowledge that you are never alone"

Audrey Hepburn*

Where do I even begin?

She's Inspiring, Sophisticated, Feminine, Smart And As A Whole, Gorgeous!

I Admire Beauty; I Envy Beauty And Beauty Inspires Me In Many Ways!

Beauty Of Love Inspires Me too!

I miss the days of having someone you love so much by my side!

Whenever I miss you, I look at your photos!

I swear no one can take your place in my heart!

I've grown so close to you It tears my heart that I can only see you in photos and you inspire me in many ways!

I see you smile, I see you laugh, and I see you cry!

I see the excitement in you whenever you bathe and I feel at ease whenever you sleep*

I cry when you are sad or in pain!

I worry so much about you whenever you are unwell!

I always feed you whenver you stare at my food!

The way you smile whenever I do something foolish-That's Happiness*

I've grown so close to you, I've loved you so much!

From the way you bite the remote control,

To the days you lie down on my shoulders and sleep;

Whenever I asked for a kiss,

You'd give me your cheeks!

You mean the world to me;

Eventhough at times you made the house so messy..

I scold you, yet you smiled!

I wish to see you grow up!

And I wish to see your dimples!

And I missed you slapping my face to wake me up in the morning to play games with you!

I missed You!

You're my everything And my love for you will never fade, I swear~

You have my word!

If I were to see you again, I'll cry my hearts out and kiss you!

I promise you this, I'll adopt someone who looks like you..

Even if I can't, I'll name my son after you..

I'll always love you, for now and forever, you'll always remain close to my Heart,

9!

xoxo~

Excited!

2009-10-27T04:30:00.000-07:00

Finally, I Have Another Modeling Assignment!

Thanks Ferdyna Darling, you're the best!

On The 14th next month, I'll be modeling, again!

Am so excited, seriously!

Thank Allah for everything he has given me!

I am blessed, completely!

I'm resting in bed after a long day in school; Exhausted, completely!

So I was browsing through the magazine and am planning to take up make up courses!

And maybe learn abit of professional make up for future use~

Thinking of being Mak Andam actually!

Still, I'm more to media and tomorrow I'm talking about a controversial issue;

Topless Car Wash!

In Singapore, Believe it or not!

And seriously, speaking of modeling..

I can see teens as young as 16, jeopardizing their life by following Hollywood lifestyle*

Influenced by celebs, they don't realize that they are ruining their lives!

I was stunned when I read the Sunday papers!

Who should be blame?

Parents or teens themselves?

It's Subjective, really

My Only advise; "Prevention Is Better Than Cure"

Don't let money or fame take over you~

This is temporary; Someday, you will grow old..

Take it as an experience in life; And Never Forget your roots..

Moving on now..

I had a blast this week!

Once again, I giggled and smiled at lame jokes and happy moments with the ones I love!

Buruma, thanks for being so supportive!

I'll heed your advise~

I had a blast at bugis with you and also at downtown East with Fee as well!

Fee, Congrats on patching things up with Wan!

I'm so happy for you, Fee~

Farah chica, see you soon ok?

I'm so excited to act! Insyallah, you'll score well for your major project!

I'll try my best to help you out, This I assure you*

Lyly, Sorry about today! I'm bogged down with plenty of assignments!

I hope to see you soon bro!

Thanks for treating me like your own sister!

I know you care alot about me and I am recovering from the heart-break no worries!

As long as I have my pillars of faith by my side, I'll be fine!

I'm strong, I've to be~

All Smiles Now!

Love You Guys Till My Very Last Breath!

My, Hang In There Ok? I Pray That Your Dad Recover Soon, Don't Forget to Pray and Be Strong!

Will pay him a visit soon!

Sorry if I've been sooo busy, I hope you guys understand!

Insyallah I'll make the effort to meet you guys!

Till Then, take care ;)

xoxo~

Emotions...

2009-10-26T07:48:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, I wish to make things clear;

My name in FB has a meaning..

[A]uburn - My Favorite Color,

[L]aura – My Alter Ego,

[A]dams – It’s A movie I enjoyed watching when I was young! I’m sure all of you are familiarized with the movie “The Adams Family”

So Now you know why I named myself as such right?

Well I’ve been so busy with school lately till I realized that I have neglected my diary, my life journal..

So much things happened lately and I shall not talk about personal issues as I don’t wish to be distracted anymore!

Not for now, not anymore!

I just can’t be bothered, seriously!

Moving on now, I realized my night vision is poor!

And I loathe traffic lights!

I might seriously need glasses when I ride!

Lolx!

Let’s talk about school;

Eugene made a command prompt about me during IA lab and it got me laughing hysterically!

Now I’m Officially a Geek!

Wish to be computer-savvy as I’m cracking my brains during Programming class!

Even So, I’m having fun in school!

And we celebrated baby’s belated birthday today!

Sayang, hope you like the gift and cake!

Do update it in your blog ok?

You know we always love you! Xoxo~

Moving on..
I’m Starting training soon and baby Is coming to

help me out to work out my abs!

Grrr!

Love it when she’s so concerned!

The Moment she saw me, she jumped for joy!

She mentioned, Baby! I miss you!

I smiled when I saw her!

Oh ya speaking of which,

I’m helping Farah out with her shooting next week!

Acting for her major project and I can’t wait to read

the script!

I’m supposed to act in a love story!

This has got to be interesting and I wish to see it

once the shooting is done!

So, that’s all for now!

My schedule is tight!

Oh yes, ladies…

Please revert back to me about spa alankara!

I hope my recommendations are good ;)

Xoxo~

Enthralling*

2009-10-24T23:10:00.000-07:00

I had a blast this week! Everything went well!

Thank God for everything he has given me, I'm Thankful Allah!

Syukur Alhamdulillah!

Praying is the best solution to every problem, trust me it helps alot!

I had a blast the whole week! My friends cheered me up alot!

I giggled and laughed always!

Did my assignments about a particular topic in the papers and am presenting next week!

I took up public speaking;

Like I never talked in a crowd before! Hehe ;)

And honestly I've been so happy!

Thank you so much baby! You made my day!

I'm always thankful to all of you!

Am Comtemplating to take up Class 2A Or Class 3!

Work's Starting Soon, Whopeee!

Anyways, I've Been busy Going Out With BFFS, Cuzzies, Loved Ones And All Who Made Me Smile Always!

Thanks For Everything, I Owe You Guys Alot!

Oh Ya I Mentioned In My FB About a Contradicting Statement!

To Be Honest, I Just Don't Wish To Talk About Rships What So Ever Yet!

I Wish To Enjoy Life And Live To The FULLEST!

Next Stop, KL!

Next Next Stop, Italy!!

Grrr, Gotta Start Saving!

XOXO~

Hey Ladies*

2009-10-22T19:39:00.000-07:00

To All My Ladies.. This Is For You ;)

Sudah kubilang jangan terlalu yakin
Mulut lelaki banyak juga tak jujur
Bila sakit hati wanita bisanya nangis

Sudah ku bilang jangan terlalu cinta
Kalau patah hati siapa mau nolong
Seperti langit dan matahari tak bersatu lagi

Hey ladies jangan mau di bilang lemah
Kita juga bisa menipu dan menduakan
Bila wanita sudah beraksi dunia hancur

Hey ladies sekarang cinta pakai otak
Jangan mau rugi hati dan juga rugi waktu
Bila dia merayumu ingat semuanya bohong

Memanglah tak semua lelaki busuk
Namun ladies tetaplah harus waspada
Semogalah kita semua akhirnya
Mendapatkan cinta yang tulus

Sudah kubilang jangan terlalu yakin
Mulut lelaki banyak juga tak jujur
Bila sakit hati wanita bisanya nangis..

So, To All My Ladies, Never Give Your Hundred Percent In Love, You Might End Up Falling Again and Again...

Happy!

2009-10-16T11:40:00.000-07:00

Thank you so much for your response, girls!

I really had a blast talking to Kak Aminah just now!

Seriously! We had so much fun!

She seemed excited about the fashion show and I was pretty happy for her!

It's her first fashion show ever! And thanks A Billion Dee For your help!

So Ina, Niza, Dee, Feefah and Illa will be helping out for the show next week!

Hopefully everything turns out fine!

Insyallah Amin*

And btw, Some tips to share with you girls..

I heard Spa Alankara's Hot Oil Treatment is SUPERB!

Location: Buffalo Rd, Serangoon
Price: SGD 35

Recommended-Visit Once Every Month*

Trust Me Ladies. It Works ;)

And Happy Deewali Everyone!

xoxo~